colorado_chick

I have my pre-op appointment in 10 days. I'm self pay, so I am fairly sure that I will be approved. My BMI is 34. I hope to have my surgery in July. I am very worried about the actual surgery. I have never had any type of surgery and have never been in the hospital. I am also worried about the long term success rate of the lap band, and I am so so so scared that this won't work and I will have spent $10,000 and still be fat. But here are some very dumb and very basic questions that hopefully some people have the answer to. 1. In the hospital, how many people will be in the operating room? Can my mom be there with me? 2. When I'm "put under" is there a chance that I could wake up and feel something? 3. What do I wear when I have the surgery? Can I just wear regular clothes and just lift my shirt up a bit? 4. How does it feel to "wake up" after being put under? 5. Is it hard to walk to the car after the surgery? 6. What if the pain pills are too big? 7. I heard that the medicine they give you for the surgery cause vomiting, but I heard that vomiting while still in recovering can cause the lap band to slip or my stomach to rupture or tear???? Well, okay, that's only 7 questions, but I'm sure I'll have more. Thank you in advance to anyone who can shed some light on these questions and alleviate some of my fears.

I am 90% sure I want to get the lap band, and 10% unsure. I'm certain that my story, my life, my decision is not unique - but it's mine. I am 33 years old, almost 34. I have been 50 pounds over weight for years and years. I have been over weight since the fourth grade. It's part of who I am. I hate it. For over 20 years, not a day has gone by where I didn't have negative thoughts about my weight and my body. I love myself, I truly do. But I hate my extra weight. I am self conscious of my body. It prevents me from doing new things, meeting new people, and living my life. I walk into a store and start comparing myself to every female in the store. I obsess. This is my life and I effing hate it. I want out. That is why I am 90% sure I want this. I don't want scars. I don't want to be in pain. Most of all, I don't want this, getting the lap band, my last resort, to fail. Because this is it. If this doesn't work, then this is my life and I am petrified of failing and having to life the rest of my life in this body. That's the 10% why I'm still scared to get it.