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I searched out help in the search bar and this convo came up. I am looking for someone to help and support me . I had lapband three years ago and have gained back all the weight. I admit I was never totally committed. I thought I was, but now when I think back I was always trying to "beat the band". Now I am 220 lbs and feel so , well putting it mildly. I am just disgusted with myself and need help. I can not do this alone. I started yoga and I love it and can do alot of it. except my stomach gets in the way and it hurts. I really feel like I can commit to doing yoga and ride a bike as well as some weight training. I just really need to get back to losing and being accountable. I need to get a fill and hopefully a support situation. I'm just so depressed about myself. any suggestions would be greatly appreciated. I am desperate. Thank you.

Omg thank you,thank you, thank you for all these great posts.

Thank you Missy xo

Thats it i guess. Right now I'm in Bandsters hell. I know it will pass. Just not happy right now. Thank You for replying. I so much appreciate reading your messages.

I want food. I want real food. I just want bacon and eggs for breakfast. A sandwich for lunch and something grilled for dinner. My husband is supportive. but he just dosn't get it. I am hungry. I'm drinking shakes, and drinking soup . Yogurt and blended cottage cheese . While he's eating anything he wants right in front of me. I am going to burst, hit the wall. My whole world revolved around meals . My social life was around meals. I don't know what to do with myself. I miss the act of sitting with my husband in the evening and sipping a wine with cheese , and Bruschetta. I can't swim because of the incision. I feel like I'm going crazy here. If I could go to sleep for the next month I would. This is hard. Everyone talks about the rewards. They never say how hard it is. I can't turn back. I feel stuck and frightened . What the heck did I do???? Will I ever appreciate the band. I just don't know.

Fantastic job on the weight loss. Theres nothing like seeing a difference in something as usual as sitting in chairs and having to wear larger gowns. Think if it this way. The arthritis was going to happen any way. Would have felt worse if you were not losing weight and still gaining. You are beautiful and you are doing a great job ! Keep the faith sista!

Sounds you want your cake and eat it too. i can only say , I ate what ever I wanted before the band. Now I regret it because I had so much more to lose.

Good luck. Hope everything goes well.!

Coughing and sneezing are the worst. A pillow helps. I sneezed last night and broke out inot a cold sweat it hurt so much. It does go away. Congrats on your surgery. Now the fun begins!

Good Stuff , I read this post last night and got some gas ex strips. Thank god. It was really helpful. Now if I could just cough or sneeze , OMG thought I would die ! How long is the gas problem going to go on? any idea? I assumed this was just a few days post op.

Bread becomes sticky and grows in the stomach. Toast however can sometimes be better. so I have heard. White bread, pasta, rice, can expand making it uncomfortable. What I have heard is to try one new food at a time. Then you will know what you can and can't eat.

As far as not being able to breath, I also have experienced that. I just took short breaths. Now today I am able to breath deep. Still uncomfortable but better. Every day is a little better.

3 days post op. I have the same pain. I know its gas. Can't wait for it to go away. I had a hernia fixed as well. I'm thinking thats why its so hard to sit up.

How is everyone doing???? I had my surgery yesterday. I'm way sore. Shoulders hurt. Having a hard time urninating <(TMI) I know. But I'm so happy to finally have had it done. Update please. We were all May surgeries. My curiosity is killing me.

just had my surgery yesterday.know how you feel. Food is such a big part of our lives. we need to find something to replace it. i bought a puzzle to do. Books on lapband to read. right now im in bed trying to type. The area I had the surgery in hurts like heck. But my actual stomach for liquid intake does not hurt. Glad for that. My left shoulder is in pain. I have been up walking around today. Sleeping alot with pain meds. The whole time , I can't believe I did this. I am so happy to be on my way. Hurts so good. Knowing I am going to lose some of this weight. Not hungry at all. I had all those feelings. Like Im going to miss my food. I love so many things. I can tell you right now. No interest in it at all. You go girl. Its going to all be good in the long run. Keep the faith and find something to do to keep your mind occupied.