krg75

HI all, it has been forever since I have been on this site. Got lots of reasons/and or excuses, but I am back regardless. First of all I have had my 2nd fill since I checked in last. I now have 4 cc's in my band. For the most part I am doing terrific with it. I am down to 272 pounds. That is a 54 pound weight loss since mid January. I am so happy, so very, very, very happy!! I have lost 42 pounds since my surgery March 18th. In losing all that weight I have gain oh so very much. I have super confidence, I have more energy, and I have such a different outlook on life. I was in a size 26...sometimes a 28 jean. Now, I am PROUDLY ROCKING a size 20!!! Flipping size 20!!!! OMG!!!! The difference is amazing. Both to me and my family and friends. I went shopping this last weekend and bought something I never thought I ever would. See, I have been with the same man for 17 years...well..17 in July. We are not married, have thought about it, just never have done it. Well, he PROPOSED to me a month ago. I AM GETTING MARRIED!!! YES ITS EXCITING!! HAHA. So, I went and tried on wedding dresses, just to see if I could even bear the thought of wearing one...I love dresses, just not on me, they do nothing to hide fat!!! lol. So there I was trying on wedding dresses and I was so surprised to be LOVING IT!! I was going to get one with sleeves, because as with all of us, my arms are a big issue. But I fell in love with this strapless-halter type dress. AND I BOUGHT IT!!!. I figured that it doesnt matter about those arms, see, I fell in love with ME again. I felt beautiful in all of those dresses. That was something I had never expected. NEVER. I cannot wait to ROCK that wedding dress come September!!! So yes my weight loss is fantastic, wonderful, exciting, and all of those other adjectives. But, what is even better, is that I have found me again. I have found the confident, out-going, smiling former image of myself. I still have a ways to go and I am not quiting until I am there. Everyday I have something to look forward to. Everyday I am happy when I wake up and feel so excited with my new life. Well thats it. This is my life. Go me!!!

I too, have been gone for several days at a time. Before surgery, I was so addicted. Now I am more focused on what I need to do for me. I have had surgery and my life is changing everyday. Glad you are doing so well!!! Keep it up!!

I have never been able to buy ANYTHING from Victoria's Secret. Cannot wait until I can!! Congrats on your victory!!

Well I did get a fill. They started with 3cc's. They do it under floroscopy(sp??). They injected the saline and then had me swallow some Barium stuff to watch it go down, The tech said it looked fine, but before I sat up, I could feel it coming back up and not going down. So they took .5cc out and told me to sit awhile and drink some water and see what happened. I started on the water, but it just didnt feel right, felt like it was not wanting to go down. I kept swallowing, idk if it was nerves or what. The tech came to check on me and immediatly saw me swallowing hard and got me back on the table and took another .5cc out. Then I had more water and everything was good. I was really nervous, but the techs were awesome. They were so understanding. That night, I had some potato soup and it DID NOT agree with me. I vomited for about 30 min...just sick and ugh feeling. Then I was fine. It was really thined so idk what it was. Have not had any problems since.

I am so nervous. My first fill appointment is Monday. Have to be there at 745, so that means a REALLY early morning and long drive for me. I have been debating for a few weeks now (with myself) over getting a fill or just staying with what I have. I THINK I have made the decision to at least get a small fill done. I am not really hungry. I am staying full for the most part. I do have occasions when I just want to eat and eat. But I am thinking that it is head hunger and not real hunger. I have been kinda stalled on my weight loss though. (My opinion). My surgery was April 18 and since surgery (on my doctor scale at home) I have dropped 26 pounds. Although the last 2 weeks I have only lost about 4 pounds. I am truly trying. The only thing that is really holding me back is the horror(LOL) stories on here about getting a fill and not being able to keep anything down...not even water, and then having to go back for an unfill. Well, I am 5 hours away from my Lapband doctor...and fear getting all the way home and having to turn around and drive back..sick... That to me is so scary. I have not had any problems with being stuck. I have had some pain when I have not chewed very well or taken too big of a bite...but no PB'ing or truly stuck episodes. The pain only last a minute or so, then goes away. I am scared of that feeling too. So...I dont know if I am going to put my big girl panties on or not...haha. The hubby says not to stress about and just go with what the doctor advises. So easy for him to say...to the woman that worries about EVERYTHING!!!! Ill let yall know how Monday goes!!

Thank you!!

So, I learned a wonderful thing a day or two ago. I was sitting in the living room on the couch with my husband. I looked down and my legs were crossed. WOW. I did not have one of my fingers hooked through the leg of my pants to keep my ankle on my knee. I actually had my legs crossed. I was so very happy!!! I can really tell the weight is coming off...even if the scale is slower than molasses!!! And the scale...let me tell you about that. In two weeks I have only lost 3 pounds. UGH...so disappointing..then i cross my legs by theirself...with no help form my arms!!! I have been off this site for a week or so...I was just kinda bummed. The scale wasnt moving. Even though I am feeling better and my clothes fit. I even went through my closet and threw out 3 TRASH BAGS of clothes that didnt fit any more!!! The damn scale just had me down. Another thing that is REALLY bothering me is my arms...they are so gross. I know my arms were big..you dont get to weigh over 300 pounds by having small arms. But since I started loosing that weight, my "bye-bye" have really been waving BYE-BYE to those pounds. (haha little joke..but no joke here...sad face) I really am disgusted with myself. I hope the rest of my body does not join suit!! UGH....everytime I get ready for work and have to raise my arm to do my hair or makeup...there they are...just flopping around... I going to do the only thing I know to do (wish I could just take a knife and cut them off!!! lol)...looks like I'm going to be joining that gym and lifting some free weights!!! My ego had been saved lately by the other half. He has made me feel so beautiful and worth this journey. We have definitly been through our ups and downs. I have felt totally blah and ugly and fat. But he is really trying. And the best part is that he sees how hard I am trying and makes me feel good about it. Defintly a good time in our relationship. So...a week of downs..and ups...and I get depressed anyway. All because of a scale...and some flabby arms. But I am going to do this. Never did I turn to food to overeat and feed my emotions. I just muddled through and survived without food!!! Which I am thinking now, is a milestone in itself. So GO ME!! I go for my first fill April 29th. Ready to see the doctor and actually weigh on the scale that started this. I am still thinking either no fill or a small fill. I am really doing so good with the food...kinda torn on that still. Will just see what the doctor has to say. Well, thats my week. Thanks for listening to my rambling!!!

That worked!!!! Thank you 2012!!!!

I had my IBand (lapband with plication) done in Ft Worth Texas at True Results. The doctor did not charge any extra for the plication. I have only had my done for 3 1/2 weeks, but I love it and am happy with my choice. My doctor said the results are 25% BETTER than with just the lapband alone.

Maybe they dont wanna see how beautiful we are??? haha

I have tried eveything!! I cannot upload pictues. I have tried for several days. I click the browse button, then find my pic and it goes into the little box with its letters and numbers. Then the only thing to click is DONE. But NOTHING happens. Any ideas or suggestions? Thank you

Thank you!! It wont be long for you either!! I am not even 4 weeks banded yet. Small things me me happy!! Good luck to you!

Thank you both!! Today I am tracking what I am eating. I said I would do it and by gosh I'm going to!! We all hunt and fish. My son is always wanting to shoot smthing to eat. His thing right now is rabbits, but IDK about that, so we havnt let him shoot any yet...lol. Its crappie time too!! They are biting real good. Already have some in the freezer!

Well today is a lovely day. My jeans...the ones I have been wearing for a few years...at least the size of jeans anyway (they never last that long because my thighs rub holes in them!!!)...have been getting really loose on me. I have one pair I can wear for about an hour before they just fall off. Which is really fantastic. So this morning I reach into my closet and pull out this pair from Maurice's that my mom bought me awhile back. And I took a DEEP breath. Then slowly, one foot then leg at a time, I pulled them on. They went up my legs(and didnt get stuck BEFORE my hips), then they went OVER my hips, then glory be...THEY BUTTONED!!!! I couldnt believe it. AND not only did they button, they were not tight ANYWHERE!!! I could grab excess fabric in my butt area and my thighs!!! These jeans were a pair I couldnt even get over my hips a few months ago. A full size smaller than the ones I had been wearing. And Maurices at that!! I think they run small!! (ok my experience, but that is what I am sticking to telling myself). What a great NSV!!!!! (because I needed it...no weight loss this week), but I will take the full size smaller, and I WILL ROCK IT!!!!