I was actually losing hope too, I had to do a second appeal to the IL board of Insurers and they found BCBSIL against the interest of the patient (me) and they were forced to approve me. Keep fighting. If they keep pushing you back, write a letter, do anything you can if you are sure you need and want this. You will get it done. I was right where you were at the end of Sept only I gained 15 lbs from being so depressed then woke up one day and wrote a 7 page letter full of anger on notebook paper and shoved it in an envelope. I was approved 9 days later. Go get em!