Izuri

I gotta agree with Lissa, you are a great writer =) I definitely enjoyed reading this entry.

So, this is the eve of PAT. Finally, it is almost here. I am trying not to feel nervous. I took CdnExpat's suggestion and made a list with all the outcomes I could think of, and what I would do. It decreased my anxiety a bit. I spent the day cleaning my house. I was worried that today was going to last forever and I had a bunch that needed to be done anyway, so I got a ridiculous amount done. Aside from the regular vacuuming and dusting, I also cleaned out a bunch of stuff in my room that I didn't need anymore. I had an entire closet full of old shoes that I never wear. I also redid the corkboard that I have in my room. I put some new pictures that I drew on it, as well as some fun things I had laying around. It made me feel good to be so productive. Plus, there is the added bonus of the fact that my room is now clean enough that I feel comfortable having friends/family come in if I need some help. My cats are thrilled that my room is cleared out some, they love to crash on the plush carpet I have in there. Anyway, so weirdly enough today was on and off relaxing. I surfed a bunch of songs I had stored on SoundHound while I worked. Tomorrow is going to be a super long day (PAT at 730am and work 3-11pm) and I want to get the chance to look through some posts and respond, Thanks again for all the kind words, they helped a lot yesterday with my frustration. Hope everyone is having a good day too =)

Thanks guys, I am glad that I was not just overreacting. He kept acting like I was crazy and it was making me feel like I was going a little overboard. I really appreciate the words of wisdom CdnExpat, I tried to do that today and it's helped a bit =)

Wow, look at that skinny lady in the new picture =D You look fabulous!

I hope you get to be in the show! How much fun that would be =) You do look incredible! Congratulations =D

Yay!!! What an awesome NSV =) I am so happy for you!

Congrats, you're lookin good =)

Hello! I just added you to friends, but I figured I'd also reply here =) I am a 25 year old college student, 3 days away from being sleeved. How are you feeling?

Congratulations!! You really do look amazing =D And congratulations on the baby, how exciting!

Yay! Congratulations =) Maybe your mom will turn around when she sees how great you're doing post surgery.

I know that for a very long time I thought that this was not what I would ever consider. There was a point for me when I realized I was not having success despite multiple tries to lose and I had to put my health first in the decision. Surgery is not the answer for everyone, but I can say completely that I feel like I was correct in choosing it. Maybe make a list of pros and cons? Early on I made a bunch of lists: Pros vs cons, the lists of complications vs what I could do to help prevent them, how much each part would cost. It really gave me a place to start out sitting down and really understanding what I was throwing around in my mind. When it comes down to it, you really have to trust your gut.

First and foremost, congratulations on your loss =) 92 pounds is great! What a difference. And second, welcome to VST!

Looking good! =D Congratulations!!

=D Wishing you the best of luck, I'll keep you in my thoughts/prayers!

It's past midnight so I guess it's officially 3 days until my surgery. I have so many thoughts and feelings going through my head that it's kind of crazy. I think I'll start with my immediate feeling, which is anger. This has very little to do with the actual surgery. I had asked a friend if he would stay with me the week post surgery because family will not be home and they really want me to have someone around most of the day to be sure I'm alright. He didn't have a job and I told him I'd pay for gas/a bit for babysitting me and we'd get to hang out. Fun times, right? Wrong. So he started getting flaky a couple of weeks ago. We talked about it and figured it out and he assured me he would be there to back me up. Thankfully, the pessimistic, cynical person that I am, I asked another friend if he could back me up and he was willing to. This was maybe about three weeks ago. The friend that has assured me he'd back me up and I kind of fell out of touch being busy with work and stuff, and I messaged him intermittently to see if he wanted to hang out, but he didn't really feel like it, but each time he would assure me yes he will be there post surgery to help me out. Lo and behold I message him tonight and ask if we are still on for it, and he says "If I'm off." And I'm like "Huh??? We have been planning on this for weeks!!" So his story comes out that yesterday he got a job and he might have to work. Which would totally be okay with me, except for the fact that he did not even bother to tell me! Three days from my surgery and he didn't even have the decency to let me know I should probably start looking for another person to help me out. When was he going to tell me? The day of surgery? Anyway, so I'm steaming over that. I am so thankful I had already asked another friend and my aunt offered to come help out. But I decided that I didn't want to be friends with this individual anymore. We had been friends less than a year, so I suppose it's not a huge loss, and obviously he has no consideration, so I guess I'm better off. It still sucks, and it's an unfortunate note to be down a friend going into a major surgery, but I think it was the right choice. Deep breaths, I'm trying to let it gooooooo. No negative thoughts will be following this lady into surgery! Onto the more relevant conversation...I'm NERVOUS. I'm still far more nervous for my PAT than I am for my surgery, which seems completely backwards. Alas, that's how it is for me. I'm hoping I get the all clear when I go in on Tuesday. I will keep you updated as the process continues. As for this pre-surgical girl, it is time for bed!

I think you'll be fine. You can only control weight loss so much. It sounds like you've been doing everything right, so I can't imagine they will turn you away with proof that you've been complying with their instructions.

I'm not trying to be rude by any means (Because I know typing can come off completely diff than I'm actually trying to say it), but what are you looking for from this forum? Are you looking to be talked into/out of the plication? I would be happy to tell you whey I decided on the sleeve, and I'm sure many on here would be happy to give the reasons they chose sleeve, but I feel a little confused as to what you're looking for as in responses. I chose the sleeve vs plication because 1) The sleeve reduces ghrelin production 2) The amount of time that it has been done 3) The number of resources I could find with information about sleeve vs plication (There was much less informatino I could find on plication) and 4) I am looking for a permanent change, and the reason to have plication (For me) would be because I am afraid of revision. There is no going back, but that's both a plus and a minus for me, and the positives outweighed the minuses.

No matter what surgery you have, there are going to be the risks of complications. Surgery in general is about weighing potential gain vs risk, and in non-elective surgery it's a little more black and white because we accept that the procedure has to be done. For me, the potential of this surgery changing my life and giving me a new opportunity to avoid/minimize disease processes, like diabetes, is worth it to me. I have exhausted the options I have on my own to lose weight and have not been successful. I realize that there are risks, but I have faith in my surgeon and myself that we will both do everything possible to minimize these risks. I think it's a very personal decision, and it's not one to be made lightly, by any means. It is important to educate yourself about both sides of the surgery, because for every bad outcome there are a number of good outcomes. When I start to feel anxious/panicked, I look through all the post-op posts and try and remind myself that I'm doing this for my health and my future.

(((((HUGS))))) Hang in there! It sounds like things will be getting better =) Just gotta get through this rough part

You look great!!! Congrats =)

I really liked your post. I think it's important that we realize that we do this too and maybe we can add a little smile to another person's day =)

Hey July sleevers, I just wanted to join in here =) Scheduled for Thursday July 26th Hope everyone is doing well!

This made me laugh =D I have read a lot about the procedures, but I had never really thought about that aspect....it is kinda creeping me out too now!

I haven't been sleeved yet, but I did consider RNY when I was making my decision. Ultimately the decision on the sleeve was for a few reasons. I felt like less change in my anatomy was a good thing. The chance of numerous vitamin deficiencies is decreased in comparison with RNY. The sleeve, when done on a patient who is motivated and willing to follow the post-op direction, can yield as much weight loss as RNY. The complication risk seemed lower to me. With RNY because there is a stoma created and a reattachment of intestines, it seemed like there was more possible to go wrong. I was worried for a while, as I could not find as much information on the sleeve, but the more I've searched, I have found that there is a ton of information available, as well as the numerous successful members on this website. Now that I'm getting close I'm certain that I made the right decision on the sleeve. That being said, some things are right for different folks, I hope that no matter what you decide it goes well =)

That is so awesome! I'm glad you really got to go on the rides with him, it sounds like it really made a difference to him =)