I left kids behind also. Mine are 19, 15, 12, 10, 8, and 6. I know how you feeling. I just want you to know when they wheel you out of your room and bring you into that operating room you will be terrified ( I dong care who your surgeon is) all I could think is " what the hell am I doing? " then I prayed!!! My sister in law (who has also done this) went through the same thing at that moment. So when your there being wheeled down just know that being scared is normal. It's not your conscience telling you something bad is gonbz happen. And I don't think you'll have any trouble with your aftercare. :-)