Thank you to everyone that has replied to this thread. I do now understand that I am setting myself up for sabotage if I cannot gain any self control. I will be in control from now on. I will make myself a promise right now, to follow the post op diet to the letter. It was given to me for a reason. So I could not harm my body. And what I have been doing is exactly that, harming myself and not caring, taking a risk. I don't want to die, I don't want to end up in hospital. The thing is, I feel good, I feel normal. I am having a great recovery, i have been up and about ever since I got home from the hospital. I have so much energy I just don't know what to do with myself! I used to just sit and watch tv a lot and eat or snack. Junk food was my best friend. Now, watching tv is kind of boring without eating, so I try not to do it so much. I think it would be better once I start exercising. I have my post op appointment with my surgeon tomorrow and my nut the day after. Thank you again to everyone, I really do appreciate your help and support. Xx