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celebrate...going into you closet and pull out those jeans that were just a bit too tight and try them on....then do a happy dance all over the house

July 30th....the day of my new me...... Well allow me to share a little insight..... Well I'v done it....I have walk the desert (as my mason friends would say)....Let me tell you it was a journey that no matter how I prepared...I was not prepared for. I stayed away from the boards purposely, because I did not want to frighten or speak negatively on the surgery. It was very difficult initially because of the medical problems I had to endure (one of which, is being unable to take pain medication). Had I gotten online initially I would have screamed the horrors of this God Forsaken surgery and who....with any intelligence at all would succumb to this beast called the SLEEVE!!!! But now 45 days away from the faithful day called "surgery" I am happy, I am smiling, I am learning, and creating new ways for myself....I have not been so happy....yes I have stalled, and yes I have slimed, yes I have had the lump in my chest that seems to want to explode...I have passed the rabbit pellets, and I have had many a day of laugher on how my body has responded to what is happening to it.....BUT... I am so glad to have made this decision. Each day is a step into sunshine, sometimes with a few clouds....but even those clouds are beautiful now...and I will peer into them and make shapes out of those puffy marshmellows, instead of endulging in the doldrumsss......The feeling of achieving a goal and starting a new one is so amazing to me at this age....(okay not that I'm old) but sometimes we forget that the new wonders surrounding us on a daily basis. I have slipped into some old jeans (yep some sergio's that is no longer any where near style but)....WHAT A THRILL.... Who would have thought....the diva in me would escape again.....im loving it ...my children are loving it ....and my love is totally estactic....I have always smiled brightly ...but right now my smile can equate to a solar flare....just 45 pounds....what the hell is gonna happen when I hit 60, never mind whats gonna happen when i finally slip under 200.....watch out now......world get ready.....Im here to take over.... My growth has been in the worst times....when those scars would not heal....when the thought of one more bite of mash potatoes or apple sauce would turn me into a ingnorant maniac....but all of the sudden I remember the feeling of going through the hell called basic training....or the hell called breast cancer .....shoot even the hell of raising two teenagers who knew everything in the world and thought I belonged in a (well never mind I divest)...Each and everyone of those journeys has brought more pride and and feeling of empowerment to my journey.....well guess what ....I'M BACKCKKK....and this new road or shall I say adventure... will will bring me out of it like a shine piece of steel put through the fire and well tested....I say...bring life on...I am so readyyyyyy!!!!

I wish you luck, I wish you joy, I wish you endurance, I wish your understanding, I wish you great comfort, and I even wish you tears of celebration......be blessed....

of course.....we are what is call.....HUMAN......we are flawed.....in every form.....you make a mistake ...get up and get over it.....but if you celebrate the mistakes then you will just make more.....shake it off.....realize the opps.....and make the next week a better one for yourself.....

and by the way ....so what if another soul notices......YOU KNOW......and that is all that matters......

Now let me see if I can even put this tastefully.....hmmmmm I dont give a flying .....well you know what I mean. I made this decision by myself.... I paid for this decision by myself (well Kaiser did the most of it).....I have never been a person that needed another being to appreciate what I have worked so hard for......If someone notices I grin like a chesire cat.....and my sashay takes on it a new life of its own. If someone ask me if I had surgery (which has not happen as of yet) but I will say yes with a grin....I am not going to hide anything.....I dont feel the need to.....this is the best decision I have ever made in my life....and Im going to revel in it and hopefully in my joy, in my shining light.....someone who may need that one thing to make the decision for themselves.....will do it or at least ask about it ....I will answer all question honestly both the good and bad....and hopefully my smile and my glow will let them know that both the negative and the positive was sooooooooooooooo worth it....I am only at the begginning of this wonderfully marverlous journey....and I fully understand there will be some twist and turn.....but for every step I may take backwards....trust me when I tell you Im going run 10 steps forward.....So I will feel no shame.....I will not accept their judgement....and I will sashay proudly with every pound lost.....

I am finally 30 days post op, and I am now including chicken, shellfish as well as fruits and vegetable. I am so excited, however when reviewing the listing for the food from my dr. He had in capitol letters do not eat grapes and raisens....now I really do not understand this. First i thought it was the skin, but then necterines has skin on it....strawberries has the seeds....but the only warning I had was grapes and raisens....would any one have a clue as to why he may have had this in capital letters " NO GRAPES OR RAISENS" ANY INFO WILL HELP

I can not find "faqs" can you share where specifically I can find it on the site please

Thank you mam.....

I see the tickers on so many posts. I also know that instructions are posted on the site but I can not find where it is at this time.....Can someone please help me in finding and assisting me so that I can get a ticker on my signature....I love it

Thank you that really helps.......

I am 2 1/2 weeks post op....I would like know what is the true reason for "not drinking with or before your meal" No one has really been able to answer this question....and to be honest when I see my dr. I have so many other questions that I forget about this one important question. I hear the rules are 30 minutes before and 30 minutes after. Can someone offer me some consise info on the importance of this rule....

I am 2 1/2 weeks post op....I would like know what is the true reason for "not drinking with or before your meal" No one has really been able to answer this question....and to be honest when I see my dr. I have so many other questions that I forget about this one important question. I hear the rules are 30 minutes before and 30 minutes after. Can someone offer me some consise info on the importance of this rule....

Hello to everyone..... I am 8 days post op and cant wait to move forward......my problem is the sweetness of everthing in my full liquid stage....my Protein, my vitamens, popcycles, ect......Now let me share with you ....my initial body fat did not derive from sweets,,,,,,I was a food girl ....you know collard greens fried chicken, pork chops, rice and gravy ect.....I even made the mistake to purchase several packs of sweet propell Water...thinking this would be better for me I am getting nauseated from all this sweetness.....I drink alot of Soup to attempt to override this .....it is becoming difficult to swallow my protien and my vitamens which is something that I must ingest. Can someone pass words of wisdom to me.....Oher than my broth and Soups I dont have any other outlet.....Help me

yeahhhhhhhhh.... I am 8 days out and so excited,,,,,,the first few days were hell on earth...but now i am able to drink and enjoy...I have been a sipper so that is easy for me.....I having difficulty with everthing being so sweet.....well I guess I will make that my question of the day.....however i am thirsty an at the same time I am able to quench my thirst....and as my dr. states at the end of the day my t t is very light in color....Im so excited...I feel like a pig in a huge mud puddle on a hot day.....wish me luck

I sorry for all that is happening to you....however I do find that we as individuals do not take the time to manage our own health and welfare. We depend on the Dr.'s, and as much as we hate to admit this, they are human. Just like any sales man, their livelyhood depends on the number of surgerys perform. We as responsible adults must take the position of understanding their own health. This means research, speaking with other medical personell, double checking credentials and using all amenities available to you. We can not lay blame on what we have control of....I wish you luck and better recovery and I hope you find true happiness in the decision you have made for yourself.

Maybe there has been some confusion.....as I read some of the responses....I believe....some of you thought that I have had the surgery already...I have not.....I am in the very begginning phases of the process....I have been doing mental battle for about 3 years...and finally in Oct....started taking real steps towards my end goal......I have just finish the Options class that Kaiser has you attend. I have also competed the physical work up...blood work....invasive sonograms....and those darn scales.....but I'm elated......the closer I get to end goal....the more accomplished I feel.,,,The closer I get to the end journey the clearer the understanding is ....THIS IS FOR LIFE....you cant turn back the hand time....and you cant wallow in woulda coulda and shoulda's..... I just wanted a place to place my honest thoughts out there....and maybe just maybe.....some one is out there saying "amen" or "I understand" or maybe find the humor in the twist and turns.......and as my waddle becomes a graceful saunter....im going to smile each step of the way....

I came home today, tired and exhausted from work. My to be brought some fried chicken home.....I ate a piece and was upset with myself from breaking down into the temptation of that oily greasy delicous piece of meat....;I instantly got up and started sewing (yes making my wedding guest gifts and loving every moment of it).... all of the sudden I broke out with a huge giggle, which turned into hysterical laughter....realizing I ate one piece of chicken....just one...not half the bird...not twenty wingettes.....just the wing......i made a huge step...I ate....i walked away realizing that this is not what i wanted or needed....and i found something to take me away....and it was almost effortlessly..... Im still grinning .....It feels wonderful to find triumph even in a mistake......

What may I ask i slimming???

Thats why I felt this would be a playground of encouraging words, heartfelt thoughts, more inner discovery....realizing that we are not alone in this journey....its going to be a rollercoaster....and im so glad I have jumped on the front row.....

I have started my journey.......actually i started about 3 years ago, but came up with every excuse in the world to hold myself back. Yes I said it....I was the queen of self sabotage......(thats another story all together).....I have now put my best foot forward to achieve this goal......my weight loss is now at 29 pounds....and yes Im feeling a bit sexy and risque.....on top of losing weight I am planning my wedding which will be in Jamaica.....Ohhhhhh so now its seems a bit clearer....yes sometimes the feeling is as if my mind is split into thousands of molecule particles...... Since completing the Options program (a program which you must complete in order to have bariatric surgery through kaiser)...there has been so many self discoveries and understanding the true inner demons with in myself. However; it has felt like waking out out of a fog that I have been drifting through for many years. Lies and deceit...all to myself....NO matter how I believed myself to be a woman of honor who has never felt the need to lie to anyone......well I was lying to myself almost on an hourly basis.....again thats another story for another time... the track for me as been drawn out....and just like that green arrow in that ins comercial (and right now I can not for the life of me remember the name of the ins) anywayssss......im following my little green arrow....Im going to make a habit to release myself on this blog.....honesty will be a must.....comedy will be a natural part....Im going to share my fears, and my victories....and will sit back an enjoy this transition in my life..... dang this blog was all about me.....and I think I like it....and that too is another long story.....Now going to finish sewing.....yes im making some of my welcome bag gifts already..... cant wait to watch this all play out ......