momee3021

<p>Hi&nbsp;</p>
<p>Ok - I am almost 40 and have been big then chubby then chunky then fat and now really let me say it obese. This is my life. Beating myself up about my weight.</p>
<p>I have been on the fence about doing the surgery for years now - the money was a great excuse and the weight kept going higher and higher while we couldnt afford it . Now I have been offered the money from my family and we can afford it - they say my life is more important than paying some bills off.&nbsp;</p>
<p>I am afraid and have a hard time feeling like I am worth $16,000.00CAD. I am scared of the point of no return - sometimes I feel that this is exactly what I need to give my that extra kick when I go to the food. This 'tool' will force me to do something other than eat - I have the mental tools to do something else but food seems to be a quicker solution.</p>
<p>I have booked my band surgery today - March 7, 2012. I'm scared but happy!</p>
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<p>I look forward to sharing this long awaited journey with all of you!!!</p>