june13sleever

I had this and I thought I was going to literally die if it went on forever. The hairy throat or the lump that stuck there. I started a PPI and it helped, but I do think it just went away on its own. It will go away.

Some guy offered to help me with my groceries yesterday, and while I want to believe that he would have done that 70 pounds ago I know that more than likely he wouldn't have helped me. I think this is why I got even more depressed when I gained all the weight back. Growing up fat, sure you get teased, but you live with it. It is normal. When I lost the weight I felt what it was like to get all the attention, the jobs, the $, the everything. Everything is different. When I gained it back it was truly a horrific experience for me, and I was so depressed. I literally had given up. Care Credit approved me for the financing otherwise this surgery would not have happened. I begged my family to help me, but they wouldn't. Since I am healthy, alive and losing weight they are all now chipping in to help me pay off the loan, but without that loan I would be crying and probably 310 pounds. I just feel like we should all never forget where we were and if you ever see anyone out and about who looks like they need help or just a friendly hello...say hello!

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I tell everyone. But I can see some people just struggling, and I wish they had the $ to do the surgery. I know how many times I was there with them saying...I have got to stop eating. I couldn't stop. I needed this to stop. So for those I hope they get it together themselves. It is possible I did it once and got a back injury which resulted in my gaining the weight back. If I didn't have the back injury I am certain I would still be thin or thinner. But once you are so far gone you just kind of give up and with an injury I am certain it would be hard to maintain such a low calorie diet. This is like a jump start, but EVERYONE needs a jump start in whatever form it may come.

It is coming out everyday! I have had it in a bun for a couple of weeks because I don't really want to know, but I have to color it. It is super gray! I bought some color from the store because I can't afford to go to the Salon right now. I might have to cut it short, but for now it is ok. I am certain I will lose more.

I asked my Doctor again about anyone losing too much weight. He said it has never happened, but I am still paranoid! I will be 5 months out November 13th, and I am down 68 pounds so far. My doctor's goal is 180. My goal is 160. I am 5'10". I like where I am now at 223! I guess I am going to go to the weight my body wants to go to, but I am still freaking out. I always freak out on those days where I have a lot of restriction. Yesterday was pretty tight! I am only 43 pounds away from my Doctor's goal. That isn't very far away. I could be there by February. I guess I just don't want to be super skinny or sickly skinny. My butt is almost gone, and i had a huge butt!

I have the chicken and the non-flavored. I was just going to send all the stuff.

I have some powders and other things that I will never use. I can mail them to you if you want them, just pay the cost of shipping. Send me your email. I don't have a list, but I bought some powders. unjury chicken Soup and something else.

So finally I can eat more...Which makes me feel a little bit better in terms of being healthy and getting in my protein, but also a little sad because I could easily fall off the wagon. I guess now more than ever I will have to start to take control. Before I couldn't eat a thing so my sleeve was in charge, but now I feel I am in charge and my sleeve is just a tool. I wasn't that great at being in charge before OBVIOUSLY! I knew this day was going to come, but I was able to throw back my chicken chilli like a normal person today! I guess now I can use the times when I am not eating to finally get my WATER/FLUIDS in...Which was a weak point for me. I just hate that hunger feeling because it isn't the same as before...it is weird. So now I ate all my soup and here comes the hunger! I was able to stay around 600 calories easy give or take, but now it looks like I could get up to 800 or 1000, and I don't want to eat that much for right now. Anybody else notice the change from when there was massive restriction to things getting a little easier to eat?

She is getting paid. Probably a lot! You couldn't get me to take a picture naked and I was only 290. She may be sick, but I think she likes the attention. She went on the show to be harassed by the audience. She did it for the $. She can certainly move very well for a big girl. Her numbers may be through the roof, but that doesn't mean she will have a heart attack .

Besides the incision pain, this was my biggest scare. It totally will go away. I am not ever really sure when mine went away, but it does!

A New Me - Did you figure out what was wrong? I don't have any problems eating and where once I said I wish I could eat more...I now can and wish I could eat just a bite. I guess it is time to start working out! I did not go to the bathroom for a few days, but everything is back on track now. Gotta drink that water! I know I am dehydrated because my urine is strong and dark. I try drinking, but if I drink I flush everything out of my tummy that I ate and then I get hungry. I actually gained a couple of pounds, but I am not going to read too much into it. I think I am going to take a couple of weeks off from looking at the scale. I am still only weighing myself once a week, but with the small gain I am thinking I need to maybe go back to just Protein. Let me know if you went to see the doctor.

I just had to take antibiotics and the directions say to take on an empty stomach. So I did and I thought I was going to die. I got violently ill. NEVER AGAIN! Take on a full stomach.

And from August 13th to today I have already lost 16 pounds! I guess it will be a slow month next week. I can't believe I am 235! That is only just a short distance away from 199 and then a short distance away from wherever I land. WHERE WILL I LAND! I don't ever remember weighing less than 180 since high school and even then I don't remember weighing less than 180, and I don't think I was 5'10" when I weighed 180. If I get to under 200 I will be happy, but anything under 199 is just going to be nuts! I haven't even started to work out! Which now that I feel I can consume more, I am going to start this month sometime! THIS IS NUTS, but I am so glad I had good enough credit to get the loan. Thank you CARE CREDIT! I also just recently found out the guy I want to do my lower body lift also takes CARE CREDIT! So I will be paying off the loan this year and by June or July of next year I should be ready for the next adventure!

I will think about a tummy tuck or lower body lift. The thing you get to remove fat on your arm. Then I will think about getting a tan (real or fake) and then wearing a bikini on the beach. I just want to wear a bikini! Skinny people think about themselves

Almost 3 months out. I hate eating anything that isn't mushy still because I don't chew chew chew. I need to work on that. Breakfast. I am always late so it is a hard boiled egg or string cheese on the go. An hour later Water or protien drink or something yummy to drink with lots of ice! Mid-Morning through Late Afternoon: Soup I eat soup all day long until it is gone. I will eat chilli or clam chowder or chicken noodle or chicken tortilla. That is about 2 cups and takes me a good 6 hours. Dinner: Egg, Cheese, Fish or meat of some kind. Then more drinking, popsicles, fudge pops or ice cream depending on how much weight I lost for the week. Occassionally I like some doritos or cheetos and I savor them. I don't eat bread, but will eat Beans, potatoes and rice...If it is in the soup. and the occasssional french fry if someone has some on their plate I don't count carbs or calories or fat or anything. I just watch the scale and only weigh in every Monday. I only really eat organic and only things that are freshly made with little to no perservatives. Except my MSG filled cheetos or Doritos on occassion. I would love to cut out artificial sweetners, but water isn't my friend everyday so I have to drink light drinks or zero calorie drinks. I am down 54 pounds in 12 weeks without working out. I will start working out this month. I am loosing my hair which will probably get worse. I need to work on chewing more and also need to work on making sure to take my Vitamins. I would like to eat some salad soon, but not until I really get the chewing down!

It was never the cake or ice cream...It was the AMOUNT of cake or ice cream.

I had some champagne! I had a spritzer! I can never drink a whole glass or can, but a couple of sips - I am also a rebel!

Wow! You just had surgery! You are doing a lot for just having surgery! You need to sit down and take a load off! It will get better!

I eat whatever I want whenever I want. I can't even eat alot so I stay around 500 to 800 calories a day. I hate eating anything that isn't mushy, but would love a california roll. I just wouldn't want to buy more than three small ones because it would be a waste. I only buy things that last and reheat well. Even if I am not eating the raw sushi I still feel funny eating things a few days after.

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I am 40 pounds down pre-op (6)/surgery (34). I am now realizing that I can eat more than before. I am tempted by chocolate because it goes down so easy. Had some sno caps at the movie. Didn't eat the whole box even though I could have so was glad for the self-control for once! Slurpees also go down so easy Peanut Butter too! So these past couple of days I have wanted sweets which at first I never thought I could eat, but now things are a bit easier and anything that melts in my mouth that I don't have to chew just slides right on down. I am not feeling too bad about it, but I don't want to get out of control. I haven't started working out yet, but know I need to start. I am pooping ok, drinking ok, hair is shedding a bit, trying to get my Vitamins in. Need to be better. How is everyone else doing

Ok Well I hoping that I trend the same way you did! I have not started working out yet, but I have to start soon. Did you work out a lot? I was about the same size as you, but I had my boobs cut off a long long long time ago. I think I am probably a lane bryant 16 now which is probably a old navy 20. Sizes are so weird nothing is consistent. I remember once back in 2003 when I lost the weight on my own I wore a size 14 jeans, but I was 190 at the time. I never got below a 14 jeans. They were express jeans. I still have them! I soooooo want to be a 10! or an 8. At 5'10" I could be smaller, but I looked great at a 14 so 10 would be CRAZY! I am able to eat more now then when I first got sleeved. I can tell there is more room in there! The month you only lost 4 were you being super strict with your diet?

I tell everyone! And what is so funny everyone always says either I had the bypass surgery x many years ago or their sister did or their friend did. I was just on the phone with a woman who when I said it she said...I had bypass 10 years ago. This was just last week! I love telling people! The day before my surgery I was eating broth at a restaurant with my family and the waitress said...honey, why aren't you eating anything. I told her...I am having gastric sleeve surgery tomorrow. She said....I had bypass 6 years ago. I don't feel ashamed about what I did! I have realized that most people just do not know what it is like to be fat. It is horrible. I think most people with the means and knowledge would opt for this surgery. I also have pretty thick skin...But don't most of us? I grew up as a fat kid and never once have been skinny skinny so maybe my skin is a little thicker, but I would love it for someone to judge me, I like the opportunity to rebuttle. ***BTW I remember the woman I was on the phone with ate her entire meal and an appitizer with nothing left on the plate. Looking back, now that I know she had bypass...I am freaked out a little. I mean she really at the WHOLE MEAL. It wasn't a little meal either! IT WAS A BIG A** PLATE OF FOOD!