TerriDoodle

I am going to have a moo-cow bona fide screaming hissy fit right here and now!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am so freakin' tired of losing my posts I could just throw this laptop across the room!!!!!!!!!!! I had quotes and responses for about 6 of you and was on the last one when I hit the freakin' backspace key to correct a typo and the whole page went away. This is just the icing on the cake....I had dreams like this all night last night. Frustration and anger...all night!!! I am sorry, girls....but this week has just SUCKED from the very beginning to the end. I want a 50 cigarettes in a row right now....and have every day this week. I hardly ever cry but right now I just want to lay down on the floor and do just that. No food, no cigarettes, no booze, ....the only thing I have now is friends. That's my only outlet and coping mechanism. Oh, and beading. And working out. I'm gonna go to the gym and get on the rowing machine and try to break that damn thing!!! GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!

(((Hugs))), you guys!! Thanks!

Laura - Doesn't WebMD have a symptom checker thingy? Maybe that would help.

I just subscribed to her blog, too. That lady is hilarious!!! BECAUSE I SAID SO

OMG. I laughed 'til I cried. I'm still reading all the comments....and ran across this. She says, "I saw the funniest T-shirt the other day. It said, 'They say I have ADD, but they just don't understand Oh look! A chicken!' ROFL!!!!!

A 'cube' of cheese usually means 1" x 1" .....I'm a FitDay Queen, y'know. Ask me any food, and I can give you a rough calorie count. I've counted them all a million times. Laura - I can very easily make your bracelet bigger if you want. Just send it to me! No problem whatsoever. Michelle - Way to go on the elliptical, girlfriend! I like to close my eyes and just concentrate either on the music coming out of my Ipod or concentrate on breathing evenly and deeply...then feeling the oxygen feed my muscles which in turn makes them work more efficiently...it's an old yoga trick! But concentrating on anything other than how tired you are will help immensely.

That's one reason I hate the title of this thread....it scares newbies to death!!! Noahsmom - I answered you in the other thread, too. 1st PB's are kinda scary but the TRICK is to just keep spitting out the saliva...if you try to keep swallowing it (or more food or drink) then it will just get worse and worse. Some people don't know that so then the PB experience turns out to be much worse than it should be. When you have a new adjustment to your band you are well served to try each new 'risky' food with great care by taking little bitty bites and chewing very well...until you see how your band reacts. Then you can relax a little bit and take a little bigger bite, then a little bigger, etc. At the first twinge of any discomfort, slow down and reduce your bite size again. It's pretty simple. It doesn't have to be such a harrowing experience. OK?

Well, you're asking someone who is totally 100% in LOVE with their band if you should cancel your surgery??? Hell NO don't cancel your surgery!!!!! The thing that newbies don't understand is this: yes, you will get stuck from time to time. Yes, you will PB every once in a while. Yes, you will slime sometimes. But it's not like that all the time!! Living with a new band has a learning curve to it. The climb up that learning curve has a few bumps along the way....but once you get to the top it's pretty darn smoothe sailing. Is it horrible?? No. Is it hard? Sometimes, but not really. Is it painful? Sometimes, but just for a little while...and you've learned something that gets you one step farther up the curve. 92% of LBT bandsters say they would do it again. 92%....that's pretty good odds. LOL...and thanks for the "wise" comment. I don't think I'm 'wise'...but I do shoot from the hip. :guess Good luck to you!!

ROFL!!!!!!!!! Ahhhh, it feels good to laugh again.

May I recommend a book to you? It's called [ame=http://www.amazon.com/This-Year-Will-Finally-Resolution/dp/0767920082/ref=pd_bbs_sr_1/103-8701536-0993439?ie=UTF8&s=books&qid=1189085078&sr=8-1]This Year I Will...[/ame] by MJ Ryan. It may help you to understand more about why you do the things you do and how to change the things you want to change. It's really very, very good. You're so not alone!

I was having a bad couple of days, plus I quit smoking(!) 2 wks ago, so I decided I was gonna go stuff myself with Mexican food last night. Sounded and smelled sooooooooooo good. So I sit down with the full intention of ordering the cheesiest fried thing I could find. But then I remembered that I was only 'hurting' myself by giving in to that temptation. I orded beef tacos instead and was just as happy. I somehow managed to NOT eat the chips, which I also couldn't believe! The tacos finally come and boy, am I gonna let them have it! I dig in with gusto, enjoy every bite....and only managed to eat 1-1/2 tacos!! LOL I thought that was pretty funny. So that's how I gorge myself into oblivion these days....on 1-1/2 tacos. Gotta love it! This must be the "progress" of which they speak.

Thanks, girlz. Ya'll are the BEST!! It helps me so much to come here. Pamela. Dear. I sympathize with you and honestly don't know how in the world you do it. My daughter is 13 and when her and her girlfriends get together I can hardly stand to be in the same ROOM with them!! They are so silly and MAN can they TALK!! And 1/2 of it is complete bullsh*t! I just roll my eyes and try to keep my mouth shut. Oh, but my EARS!!! Last weekend I wished I could wear earplugs. LOL Did I mention that she is hyper??? And her friends are all hyper too??? OY VEY!!!! I cannot imagine in my wildest dreams trying to control a whole class of these .....people(?)!!! Kat - I did LOL when you talked about your cousin wanting you to pour dirt on her. That's pretty funny....for us, not for her! Teachers would still be way underpaid if they made twice what they do. It's ridiculous.

Jenn -- WHEN ARE WE GOING TO GET SOME PICS???? You don't want to make me mad(der)!!!

HEY!! I'm going to Vegas on Monday too!!! How wild! We're staying at Treasure island....how about you? I flew to Colorado in June but I wasn't at full restriction then. I didn't notice any difference.

Laura - Yep...I agree about the appendix. That was the first thing I thought of when I read that it kept getting worse. Nothing to play around with that's for sure. I am still in the dumps. I don't want to get into the details but I think this is why I'm so depressed: The ex is going to AA, swears to get clean and the kids are going to stay with him. My lawyer said I could have won custody with no problems if DS would testify. Anyway, I coulda had my kids back....but once again they've chosen to stay with him. He makes them feel so damn guilty and I don't so they figure I'm "ok" with things like they are. Nothing could be further from the truth. I'm in pain 24/7, I just don't make them responsible for it! I take my lumps because divorce is what I chose, not them, so I allowed them to go back to their old schools when they asked to. It was the hardest thing I ever did, but I never let them see how hurt I was. I see them all the time but there's nothing like waking up in the middle of the night and knowing they're in the house safe and sound, sleeping like babies, and that they'll be there in the morning when I wake up. DH was also not exactly offering the support I expected which is massively disappointing. I think our problems are bigger than I realized. My kids and friends go on an on about how great I'm looking. He says nothing. You guys and all my RL friends are freaking out with glee that I have quiet smoking. He said "Oh" and hasn't said another word since. He doesn't like confrontation, so this is how I live when there is something wrong: Silence. I'm about to give up on the whole damn thing. He doesn't try to fix anything. He just waits for me to get tired of the silence then he acts like there's nothing wrong. Nothing ever gets discussed unless it's a fight. This is no way to live. I'm gonna go off and see how many thousands of calories I ate today. :pout:

Thanks, Julie! I'm doing great....Day 17!

Well, Kat at LEAST you got sex out of the deal!!! Hope it was good! Oh wait, if it was good you wouldn't be so grouchy!! Hell, I haven't had sex for weeks. <insert lightbulb icon here> Hey!! That must be why I am so grouchy! Grrrrrrrrrrr. Snarl.

I work on the 6th floor of my building. I can officially walk up all the flights without taking a break between floors. And I'm still alive when I get to 6!!!

Is it any wonder why 'older' women (as opposed to girls) are labeled 'bitches' by men? Look at the crap that we put up with over the years and yet we are expected to remain soft, affectionate and vulnerable...??? It's laughable. sorry. Told you I was grumpy.

Oh, Kat - That is such a great story about the bracelet!!! Thanks for sharing that with me! Pammy - thanks for my note and the reminder of my special friend in Palm Springs. I love it and it makes me smile....especially on a grumpy day like today!! You had a good food day yesterday!! I think the routine will be good for you.

Jane - No, this isn't right and you know it!! Write a letter to the adminstrator of the hospital, with a copy to the BBB and the state attorney general's office. Notify them that if you don't have your refund in 10 days you will be filing a lawsuit. Then do it. Alternatively, find a cheap lawyer in the phone book and pay them $50 (?) to write a threatening letter for you. Hospitals and insurance companies will rip you off however they can. They make their bills, statements and settlements so damn complicated for a reason!! It makes me so mad that people here at LBT (like Michelle) had sooooo many problems getting insurance to pay!! They had to file appeal after appeal and then they get approved??!?!? Why does it have to be so freakin' complicated?! I hate to think of the insurance nightmares one would have if you had an ongoing serious illness. Boggles the mind. I think they count on people to just throw their hands up and surrender in exhaustion.Ok, I'm off my soapbox. Tracy...I am so proud of you!!!!!!!!!!! Just goes to show that you've obviously been doing some hard work and you deserve to button those jeans, girlfriend!! I'm having a grumpy day. :tired Very grumpy.

I'll eat enchiladas, beans and tortilla soup. I don't do too well with flour tortillas, corn is better. Guacamole is ok, of course. Nachos are OK...as long as they don't have fajita meat. I haven't tried fajitas...I don't think I would tolerate them well. Oh, and fish tacos...I love those!

TracyKS -- I don't understand.....what does your ex want??? Visitation? UGH! I just got off the phone with my lawyer a little while ago and I am very pleased with what she had to say. Now to talk to DH, then my son. I'm a nervous wreck and have tons of work to do!!

Morning!! Busy, busy day at work today...but the rest of the week is going to be a BREEZE. 188.8 today Had Chinese last night and it does it to me every single time. I'll check in later when I need a break. XOXO!

After my 1st fill I've averaged about 1# a week, maybe a little less....but I am lower BMI and i generally lose weight slowly anyway. I'm not complaining at all because I don't feel like I'm dieting...eating foods I enjoy just a lot less of it.