And so I begin..........

I sit here at 120 pounds past my goal weight waiting. My surgery is less than two weeks away and I am excited and terrified all at once.

The dreams have started and they are crazy stupid dreams.

The first one I had was about my surgery. I sat on the table in my gown waiting for the doctor. It was an all glass room, people on the floor of the office building could see in. I hated the idea of being naked and not in control of what they would do to me. Kinda freaked me out.

I sat up and the nurse made me eat bloody possum! I have no idea why that came into my dream. I did as told, but ran out of the room to find a pen ( go figure). As I was running I went into a large room where the doors slammed automatically. I tried to get out but they wouldn't open. I saw this as my fear the surgery would not happen b/c of a fatty liver or adhesions from my Hysterectomy!!!

Anyway I finally got out when someone else came in looking for the water fountain. When I got back in to the surgery suite my mom was there with the staff and doctor. They weren't happy I was missing, but decided I could have the surgery anyway.

I was so happy to see Dr. McDreamy was the one who would do my surgery ( From Grey's Anatomy). Just as they were ready to start, my mom pops her head up and says she is going to be the one who will do the first cut........I scream and wake up:-)

From what I understand this is common to have nightmares and will continue until I have the band in place.

does anybody have any info on the psych eval before being approved?

It's from the anxiety and worry. I'm looking forward to greeting you on the other side of the band.

Great blog...I've had some weird dreams too. I think yours and mine are about the fears of not being in control and not knowing what we can really eat after (Hold the possum!) LOL!

The reason I decided to respond, though, wasnt the dream but the statement you made about the band being like your wedding band. That's a great thought. I am now thinking of getting myself a ring (I usually only wear my wedding band) to wear prob on my right hand to remind me of my lap band! Thanks for the great idea! Cali