Imagine

As I begin this process I find myself trying to even imagine eating just to sustain myself. What would I look like now if I were thinner? How will I deal with not using food in the unhealthy way I have been. I am sure someone can relate to having lost faith in dieting. It is hard to give myself permission to take this kernel of hope and believe in it. I have been in this forum for a couple of weeks reading and reading. I know the band is a tool and it seems to come with it's own share of trials and triumps. At this point it is a walk of faith for me to proceed and start to let myself imagine that things can be different.

At first I was terrified of having surgery. Now I am really having to think about what I would be giving up both good and bad by getting the band. It has made me really examine just what I am doing eating like I currently do. All this is good regardless of what I decide. Life is always a such a journey.:rolleyes2: