This is it...

TODAY is THE day. I actually leave in about 20 minutes! make that 15! in 2 hours i should be taken back to the OR and by 8 they should start.

yesterday i wondered, should i be doing this?

last night, i took before pics. YES, i SHOULD be doing this, and i should have done it or SOMETHING about it SOONER!

you can SEE the unhappiness in my face.

i cannot even recognize the person in those pictures.

I know by the end of the day i will be thinking, WHAT IN THE HELL DID I DO TO MYSELF???

but in a few weeks, i will be so happy to have done this and to be on my way to a healthy, happy ME!!!

for now, let the freak out begin! AAAHHHHHHHHHH!