In the beginning...

This is for me. Ok so I am nearly 40, married, three kids and I have always been overweight. I am sick of the comments "your not fat" or "you have beautiful skin"( yeah dont look to close!) and my favorite "your healthy" No I'm not! I am always doing for others and then blaming them for my hangups and failures. I am sick and tired of getting dressed up thinking i look nice and then arriving at said function being surrounded by tiny gorgeous women that dont sweat. :scared2: So after great deliberation I have decided on the band! Yeah I was confident and excited and now I am kinda starting to freak the closer I get to surgery date which is Feb 20th 2009. My start weight is 108kgs. I am frightened, hey like what am I going to eat, what if there are complications blah blah, you know what EXCUSES! my whole life is made up of excuses! so hear we go!

Hey Skinny (love your ID), just wanted to say welcome to LBT and if you weren't nervous, you wouldn't be normal. Glad to hear you're finally putting yourself first! You deserve this! -BG

Skinny, Boy Can I relate to how you feel. I am almost 1 week post op and still wonder what I am going to do with myself with out the food to fall back on. But like you I am tired of feeling out of place when I go places and see all those shinny people. We can do it. Just need to start making the right choices. You will do great.