Bigger than I thought

After putting my new numbers in on sparks my chart shows I have lost 20 lbs since my journey began. Looking at myself I don't see where they were lost from. And no one else looking at me sees any weight lost either. I told a couple of co workers I have lost some weight being on the diet and they rolled there eyes in disbelief.

I noticed after surgery my throat hurt a little, it stopped after a couple of days and in the last couple of days it seems to be back. I also realized today I had gotten bigger than I wanted to admit. When I looked at me in clothes, I did not see what others looking at me saw. I used a tape, and did not like wnat I saw. see now I have gone from a 38 gut to a 45.