Scared to Begin

11 days with my band. I have not yet started eating foods yet. I can start on Friday. I spend so much time on the forum trying to find people who have had a successful weight loss journey with the band. Its so hard to get myself motivated when there are people who try so hard to only loose 30lbs in a year. I know that losing 30lbs is fantastic, but i want to loose 100lbs in a years time. I am young, 27. My father set up this surgery for me and paid for it 100% :thumbup:, no insurance, and the last thing I want to do is disappoint him.

I am so worried that i will mess this up. I have like ZERO willpower. I live with my boyfriend who is a complete saint. he is trying to help me come up with meal plans and he walks with me everyday. Its like I just cannot picture myself ever losing this fat. I have been fat me entire life, exceot for a year when I was 14. Ever since then I have fat. When I started this I weighed in at 262. As of today i weigh 252. I have been on the liquid diet for a little over two weeks. So I know the weight I have lost is because i am not eating. What happens when i start eating again? I will gain all of that weight back? I am not afraid of exercise. I am not lazy. There is a nice gym here at my complex and I dont mind going on the treadmill for an hour.

Another thing i am worried about is the period of time in between my first fill. My fill is scheduled for Feb 27th. Thats a month away. It is exactly 6 weeks from my surgery date. Most people say that they are able to eat whatever they want and they go back to eating how they were before the band. That is smoething I am afraid of. before the band I was constantly eating. ALL THE TIME. One of the hardest things I am going to have to learn is 3 meals a day, NO SNACKING. But when I am hungry, I am physically in pain. So I eat.

I know I can do this, I just wish I could get rid of all my fears and worries. :ohmy:

Concentrate on getting your protein and liquids! Yes, You CAN do this. People do not go through this of course w/out doubts, but girl think about the beautiful princess you are on the inside and begin to let that show on the OUTSIDE!!!! Good Luck.

Take it one change at a time. Commit to doing something different each week. Now that you're on liquids, maybe start training yourself to only have 3 meals per day; no snacking-drink lots between meals. Add exercise a little at a time. Know that the band won't be able to help you much until you've probably had several fills, so it's up to you for awhile...one step at a time. You're young, the weight can come off faster if you work at it.

You can do it!! It is amazing how I am no longer hungry like I used to be. You will be so happy once your filled and at your sweet spot. The time between being banded and when you hit that sweet spot is the toughest part of being a bandster. You can do this!!!

Yes, I too can't imagine myself as thin, but it's something I like to think about before I fall asleep at night. I was afraid of dropping a lot of money down afraid I might find away to screw it up. But I believe I got a good support system. It sounds like you do too. My doctor told me my meals should only be 4 oz. Everyone is different, but he says until I start recognizing my full feeling, it's best to just messure out 4 oz. of food. I'm going to just trust I won't be starving and get fills when I do. I think you will find your way.

Thank you so much everyone for your kind words and advice. It means so much to someone just starting out like me. I have never been one to take to change very well, but since this change has relatively ZERO negatives and ALL positives attached to it, I am more motivated to give it my all.

I am working on turning my fears into motivation to make sure that I do not fail this time. I know I deserve to be healthy and happy. it has taken a lot for me just to be able to say that. =)

When I drink one of my shakes, i am so stuffed that I can barely finish them. I think that is a good sign. My dietitian said that one of my biggest hurdles will be for me to distinguish between real hunger and head hunger. I am really understanding that now. I am an emotional eater, and a stress eater. Oh, and when I am bored, I eat. its almost like, if I have been sitting down for any period of time, i think my mouth should be chewing something. lol

I am getting closer to eating again. I never would have pictured myself afraid of being able to eat. Its a very strange feeling for me.

THANK YOU again everyone for your helpful comments. =)