Testing the Band--Bad Idea

Before I had the band, I read posts where people were testing their bands, and I thought I'd never do this. I was wrong. Yesterday, I ate a bite of my son's Hot Pocket, 1 M&M at the movies (ate around the peanut and threw it away), 2 cups of sf pudding. Looking at this list, it doesn't seem horrible, and nothing made me throw up or got stuck, but I woke up feeling a little blue. I IM'd a friend this morning who said :Don't stretch the pouch!" and I gave myself a talking-to. I went through all this pain and effort to lose weight. What is this childish feeling that makes me want to see what I can get away with? I will do better today...

I do feel a little dread that I have to go back to work Monday. It's the best thing for me, but I like being at home with the kids. They are old enough to be alone when they have to, but I wish I could spend more time with them in the summer.

Oh well, time for vitamins and breakfast before it gets too late. Next week, we join a health club and cancel cable (other than basic).