Mutating

Today is the first day I see a difference in my face since I started losing weight. I don't look puffy or as old. I'll admit, I stood and looked for a minute or two. I've spent so many years NOT looking. I look at my hair to brush it, my teeth to floss, my blouse to see if it is buttoned right. But I avoid the big (really big) picture. Today, I met my eyes in the mirror and saw someone I remember looking back. This is a good thing since I am a little worried about losing myself. I've been chubby, voluptuous, fat, and obese. If I was thin, I barely remember, so the thin me is a stranger. I worry that I may not like her...

Sorry, just a little reflective tonight. One week from tomorrow, I get banded.

Hi - I wish I had an answer for the way you are feeling but I too have those thoughts - almost afraid of what the other me will be like - if different at all. But since my banding in May 2008 - I can tell you the benefits outweigh the fears - I do not snore anymore, my energy is high (I don't recognize myself) and I am beginning to socialize without thoughts of my weight first.

Good Luck next week - you will do great!

Christina

i also have those feelings, don,t want to look in the mirrow. we all get down own ourselves. wish i had a magic touch to zap stuff away then no more worries. hope you feel better.once you get band look out you gonna be a lean mean sex machine.smile