good weekend

my girls are smiling and being little girls again. They just got their ears pierced and that has made their eyes sparkle. I have started seeing myself the way others have been looking at me. very large. it has been a new thing for me to see myself under this other person that I have walking around with. wow, I weigh twice as much as I did 20 years ago. I have been thinking about all the foods that we are not suposed to eat after being banded and have realized that there are very few that I actually eat now. I guess the celery and peanut butter will be one that I miss, but that is not much. I guess that is why I am so confussed about being this big, I eat the way they say I should but I just keep getting bigger. Hubby and I have been cutting our portions in half the last two months and I have gained more weight once again. It makes me want to cry, but maybe after the banding that will stop the cycle and my girls will no longer have to worry about their friends teasing them because of their fat mom. SC :cool:

My son, 12, is sad that I am getting banded June 27. He says I've always been his big, soft, huggable mom. My kids have never been embarrassed of me as far as I know. I told my son I will always be his huggable mom--hopefully for many more years than if I had stayed this large. By the way, I too have health eating habits but my portions are too large. Also, as I got heavier, I became more sedentary. Over ther years, it adds up. My nutritionist says I can probably only eat 800 calories a day and lose weight. I've screwed up my metabolism with dieting. Without the band, I can't eat that little.