Trying to change 'mentally'

Today I'm two weeks post-op and I've lost 11 or so pounds so far. The scale keeps fluctuating between 284 and 281. That drives me nuts. I know I shouldn't weigh every day, but I want to and I'm going to keep doing it. I'm driven by the numbers.

I'm not bummed out when I don't see the scale fall - I know I'm losing inches.

I went through my closet yesterday and got rid of a lot of clothes that are now too big. Some still had tags on them. Good grief.

I tried on some pretty nightgowns and robes that I had been given at my bridal shower two years ago. Two years ago it was so depressing - I took the nighties and robes on my honeymoon, but never wore them because they didn't fit.

NOW....they totally fit. They're actually a little too big. I screamed. Then I called my mom and then my husband. Of course he wants to see me in them!

He's so wonderful - what a great supporter I have in him. I know I couldn't do this without him.

I've been walking a lot since surgery, but today was my first - put the tennis shoes on and power walk - day. I was actually a bit sore and light headed towards the end of the walk. I went for 30 minutes and walked as hard as I was able to. It felt good to get out and to get going. I'm still on liquids though, so my energy isn't where it should be yet.

I suppose I could start my blended diet today (I'm allowed to two weeks post-op), but my post-surgery appointment with my doctor is Thursday and he had originally said he wanted to approve the advancing of my diet, so I may wait until Thursday.

I'm so hungry though - I think I may blend up some refried beans and salsa. I need more protein and I'm sick of protein shakes.

Back to my closet - I tried on some nice summer work blouses I've saved for a few years. When I bought them they fit (barely), but I soon out grew them. I have one of them on today and it feels so good. I don't need any summer clothes...right now. I know I'm going to keep losing and they're soon going to be hanging on me. My dress slacks look ridiculous on me - they are a bit loose in the waist, but the butt and legs are totally baggy (I carry my weight in my waist) and look stupid.

I may be wearing capri's from Wal-Mart this summer. They're inexpensive! I don't want to spend a lot of money on dress-work clothes until I'm closer or at goal.

Oh and a non-scale victory. At a meeting today I crossed my legs. Ahhh, sweet victory!