April 8, 2006

Copied from a post I left about depression:

Hello all,

I just wanted to chime in on the subject, I too have a history of depression, and found myself feeling really depressed after surgery, even though the recovery was way better than I expected.

I think part of the depression is directly related to the surgery (as in many people suffer a little depression after major medical procedure) But i also think some of the depression is because of the lack of weight-loss after STARVING yourself for three weeks. I was banded on 4/3 after being on a 10 day liquid diet. I started back on the liquid diet after being on a clear liquid diet yesterday, I have consumed less than 1000 calories a day and I have only lost 11 lbs. I too, am hungry, and the last two days I have indulged in foods i shouldn't eat (telling myself If i chewed them to mush, what 's the difference) then I panic about the possibility that I may have messed up my lapband somehow, vow to stick to liquids, only to do it again! what is wrong with me? I paid out of pocket $14,000 for this surgery and I am messing it up. Someone please tell me that if I don't stick to the diet i will ruin my surgery. Maybe if I hear it from someone else I will believe it. I was so gung-ho on this, and I keep messing up. This my friends , is why I think I am depressed. (duh...) Maybe confession is good for the soul and after sharing with all of you, I will be better.

I don't know what I will do if I don't make this work...

HI! I'm relatively new to this forum and have not been banded yet so I can not give you any advice on that but this will work for you. It will because you are going to make that choice for yourself. Give yourself, and your body, some time. You're brain is going 100 mph and your body is probably about 25 mph!!! You've lost 11 lbs already - thats GREAT! Start reading the posts and learn ... learn ... learn ... as much as you can. You will be successful because you are beautiful [i can see your picture] and smart [because you're here!] and have a lot to offer everyone you know. Do I know you? Nope. Don't need to. But I know you can do it. We all can. Give yourself permission to accept your body's pace and to catch up to the rest of you.

I hope that helps. Just keep reading here, type in a journal every day because in 3 months you are going to reflect back on this and think ... I DID IT!!!!