one more time with feeling

First of all, i have been very sick the past few days. This has been no fun. So I did a bit of research about the next doctor on my list and she really doesn't have much experience with lap-band. So that knocks her off my list. So I am on a mass search for a doc. I believe i have found one. I love his credentials so far. Now its just calling to set up the consult.

I am just disheartened. I need to get a job that will cover this. I HATE HATE that my husband's policy excludes wls. I know i'm sick and everything is weighing on my nerves right now. But it is just making me upset. I have finally come to this point in my life where I am emotionally and mentally ready for this commitment. I have a wonderful husband who is going to supprt whatever decision i will make. But i keep hitting walls.

:help: