Finally made the call

What has posessed me to make a decion that will in tern effect the rest of my life!! I really do not know how all this has came about!:omg:

But the rest of my life hopfully will be longer then the path im currently on if i dont do something about this weight! Im 126kg which is around 270lbs OUCH!!! I cant remember getting here its a long life journey that needs to end. I do know too much food and no working out=ME!!!!!

Im currently depressed and frankly have no real motivation to do anything this is my last option and if it fails well so be it Im just meant to be big!:hungry:

i know there will be some of you that say that i should think positive. My response to that is Well here iam making a dramatic lifestyle choice and its a big step for me so cut me some slack! LOL . I think im in denyal and i never thought I was until I tried to hide myself under loads of makeup today to make myself look attractive! but it doesnt work anymore I cant hide the fat that has built up over 28 years under foundation. I cant hide it under my size 26 clothes and i cant hide it from myself anymore. My husband is supportive but i find it offencive that he is. I mean i think he must think im ugly and fat and must secretly be repulsed by me!! But if he wasnt supportive i would be angery at him!! POOR GUY;)!!!

Im in a pickle confused about who im and what I want to be but if anything i need to do this for myself and for my life i dont wont to be another statistic and i certainly dont want to see the day where my 2boys get ridiculled cos there mother is fat.

So i picked up the phone and made the first step wish me luck my journey starts on the 16 Aug where i will meet the Doctor for the first time!!

LOOK I HAVE BEEN OVERWEIGHT ALL MY LIFE. AT FIRST I WAS THE CUTE CHUBBY GIRL THEN I JUST BECAME THIS HUGE PERSON AND I LOST ALL MY SELF-ESTEEM MY PERSONALITY BEGAN CHANGING. PRIOR TO HAVING MY DAUGHTER I GOT ON THIS LIQUID DIET FOR 3 MONTHS NOTHING BUT LIQUIDS!! AND LOST 50 POUNDS AS SOON AS I GO PREGNANT I GAINED ALL BACK. AND PEOPLE CAN'T UNDERSTAND UNLESS THEY HAVE NEEN FAT THEMSELVES. I HAVE A FRIEND WHO IS AS BIG AS ME AND CLAIMS TO BE PERFECTLY HAPPY ALTHOUGH SHE'S GOT DIABETES AND A BUNCH OF OTHER THINGS. I TRULY BELIEVE SHE IS IN DENIAL. MY SURGERY IS 6/18 JUST AROUND THE CORNER IM SO EXCITED TO START A NEW LIFE MY BABY IS 1 AND I WANT TO BE ABLE TO PLAY WITH HER I THINK THIS IS THE SURGERY THAT IS LITERALLY GONNA SAVE MY LIFE CAUSE IM CONSTANTLY HUNGRY. I WILL KEEP YOU POSTED ON MY PROGRESS. IM 23YRS OLD, 5'5" AND 262. THAT HAS TO CHANGE!!! THIS SITE IS FOR SUPPORT AND I HAVE TRULY FOUND IT....SO HANG IN THERE THINK ABOUT IT AND TALK TO OTHERS FOR ADVICE.

I AM EXACTLY WHERE YOU ARE...I'M NOT 100 % SURE IF THE LAP BAND IS MY SOLUTION, BUT I HAVE TO DO SOMETHING...I TOO AM CONSTANTLY HATING WHAT I HAVE BECOME...THERE WAS A TIME WHEN I LOVED TO GO SHOPPING...BUT SHOPPING FOR A 24 IS NO FUN. WHAT IS EVEN WORSE FOR ME IS SEEING PEOPLE THAT I HAVENT SEEN IN YEARS, AND I CAN SEE THE TOTAL AMAZEMENT ON THEIR FACES...IT'S EMBARASSING AND DISHEARTENING...MY 8 YR OLD TOLD ME LAST WEEK THAT HE WAS EMBARASSED WHEN I WORE MY SWIM SUIT...IT'S TIME TO DO SOMETHING!!