First entry..

I'm hoping that six months from now, I open this journal and barely recognize the feelings that I am about to express. I've been overweight forever. FOREVER... and isn't funny that when you look back at old photos, when you thought you were as fat as could be.... what you wouldn't give to look that way now??? I was reading some old diaries that I wrote when I was in HS, and I was complaining about how fat I had become.. "ballooning up to 140 lbs". Anyhow, I'm trying desperately to replace my habit of eating crap and vegging out on the couch, with diet and excercise. I want to be an excercise addict. I've been working out as well as I can.. my schedule isn't exactly condusive to good excercise habits... BUT I've found the more you WANT to work out, the more you will find time to do so. And the eating crap?? That's still my biggest struggle... it's just easier to swing by Mickey D's and order a value meal than to come home, broil fish and steam veggies and sit down an eat.. BUT I guess if I can convince myself to WANT to prepare a healthy meal, I will. My nutritionist would cringe at the amount of fast food I eat. I really need to stop that... More later.. Gotta pick up the kids.

I know what your saying! I would KILL to weight what I did in high school, or even when I got married (which was 140 lbs). I remember being so depressed at 140lbs. I would now be jumping with joy if I reach that. lol. Yes, what I used to consider fat, I now consider SKINNY!

Glad to know I'm not the only one out there.... How much more fun would we have had if we weren't out there 'feeling' fat. :-)