I've changed my mind

Negativity is no way to begin this. I've changed my mind - it will work because I will make it work. I shall make it successful (if I meditated, this would be my mantra).

I've been really good about what I've eaten for the past two weeks ... well, kind of. I've not controlled my dinner portions as much as I should, but I've been eating real, homecooked meals (no fast food in two weeks - a miracle for me) and starting with the protien when I eat. I had Taco Bell for lunch yesterday though (and not just Taco Bell, but too much Taco Bell) because I had a bad day and guess I thought it would magically make it better. And then I won't even tell what I had for dinner tonight - seriously reverting back to bad, bad ways - bad binge eating like I haven't done in a couple of years. I think I let myself slip into the mindset of 'I'll have the band soon, so it doesn't matter what I do for the next two weeks.'

I can't let myself continue like this though. I need to show to myself I'm dedicated now, before I have the band forcing me to stop. One day at a time, right?