Really?!?

Ok so i havent written in a bit..and im writing now b/c i just came off of a binge..a bored binge..a comfort binge..a stress binge..one which after i was done all i wanted to do is cry and thats what i did..i wish that voice in my head woulda been loud enough to wake myself up b4 i did it..i do good for a while and then BOOM ! the devil takes over and im back to old habits..my NUT wants me to try to get down to 280..as of the last visit i was 301.5..i usually weigh every day and she advised me not to but i told her it keeps me on track but now im not so sure..so i put it away and will not weigh until i step on the scale at the drs on Aug. 21. I have to get stronger..i know the sleeve isnt a cure all and that i have to work my sleeve but it will be so great not to be able to overeat..i know most of it is in my head (aka head hunger)..I'm just so frustrated and stress in my life doesnt help one bit..

rant over ..till next time