Another Hoop

Saw the psychologist for this appointment. Felt pretty good about it in the end. I asked him about what he saw the most. He said the most problems he sees are untreated depression and unrealistic expectations. He feels I'll do well. That makes one of us. I'm worried still about self sabotage. I don't know about anyone else. For me though, the start of a diet goes ok. I'm on track counting calories/points/carbs/protein/etc. Then when the weight loss slows down, I push it. I lower my calories, I up my time at the gym. After a couple weeks of this, one of two things can happen. Either I get hurt and have to take off time from the gym which wrecks the whole "being good" thing. Or I'll get ragged and by the end have no energy left and I get pissed that what I've done hasn't worked...again. While the family goes and gets themselves dairy queens. I really don't know what it feels like to have the effort actually pay off. The idea is so pie in the sky right now.

I have 2 tests left, the upper gi and the stress test. I have an appt w/ my nut. on the 25th. Just trying to keep my head down and do the program I'm on. Next step is to figure out the vitamin/protein thing.