The Final Countdown

1 week till surgery. O.o

1 week done on the preop diet, 1 more to go.

I've done pretty well. I had 1 sort of cheat night for my Brother's birthday on Saturday but it was just Caesar salad and maybe a few more than 3 oz of meat. I didn't have any appetizer or dessert, man was that tough lol

I'm down 12 pounds since the 10th of November. 6 of those pounds have been lost since i started my preop diet last Monday. Hoping to get a few more off before next Monday but wouldn't you know it Aunt Flow has made her unwanted appearance. So that might make things difficult with retaining water.

And I'm dying for some Midol right now but I'm not sure if its ok to take so I sent an email to my Dr's office to see what they say.

I am happy that I'm now in my 1 size smaller pants again, LB's 7s instead of 8s.

I've been doing good on my shakes and nighttime meals. I've learned I like 2 scoops of Muscle Milk Light - Chocolate with 8oz of water better than Chike's Chocolate.

Been doing pretty good getting in at least 54oz of water every day with most days hitting the 64oz

We've been making dinner every night and I've been measuring out my 3oz of lean meat. So far it's mainly been chicken and pork.

I still need to take my before photos. For some reason I keep putting it off lol. Think I'll try to do that tonight.

I've been doing awful getting in my walking every night, last week i only walked 2 nights for 30 minutes. I'm determined to get back to it tonight.

I've also started getting all the things i'll need for surgery day. I've got my clothes I'm wearing there, a new pajama set coming in the mail and some nonskid warm socks. Got the gasx I've heard everyone recommend and the rest of the stuff I already have on hand.

Also got most of my post op diet stuff. Got chicken, beef & veggie broth. Sugar free jello and Popsicles.

The nerves are starting to kick in. I've had a few nights that were really hard. My mind is still trying to divorce food. Every where I look there's something that's tempting and the nights where i have hunger pains its really difficult. The real challenge has been between lunch and dinner since thats usually about 6 hours or more apart. I do just fine 4 hours between protein shakes but the 5 and 6 hour mark i start getting pretty physically hungry.

I also have fears of not being able to have large amounts ever again of the foods i love so much, but i know this is awful thinking and i'm trying to put it behind me.

I'm also worried about what my body will look like after all the weight loss. I'm absolutely dreading the saggy skin and wonder if i'm trading one ugly look for something even worse. My hubby has been very supportive and says that we can get the skin removed after but It's expensive, comes with its own risks and then i worry about the scars after. It's like i dont know if i will ever be truly happy with my body. But i know for my health and if we're ever going to be able to have a baby I have to get this weight off.

Well I'll keep y'all posted. Good luck to the others having surgery soon!