3.5 week update

Well where to start? Overall I have been doing good. Super tired and not getting in enough water which is giving me leg cramps and lightheadedness. I know its an adjustment for my body but being tired all the time sucks! I had a mini breakdown yesterday. I went to my pcp for an afternoon appt. I am suposed to check in with her after surgery and I had some questions on dehydration and incision pain. She basically said to me you did this to yourself. I was like I know I did this to myself thank you. Then she proceeded to tell me that my body is not dehydrated, even though I am drinking about 20 oz a day. Then told me for any other questions to ask my surgeon. So I left. I guess I knew she wouldn't have too much advice as this is not her specialty, but as my surgeon is in a different city I can not just easily go see him. I prefer face to face appt rather then email. Then my boyfriend was mad that I got off an hour early for basically no reason. I was sitting in the parking lot of kaiser bawling my eyes out. I knew I was just frustrated, in pain, thirsty and tired but still. I felt better after my cry. Each day is a new day. I have lost 25 pounds since surgery for a total of 61! I am trying not to nap as much when I get off work so that I can have more time to drink water. Its all a work in progress.