A better me

Thats what I am striving for...me only better. That is the main purpose of this journey. But there are so many things that i need to tackle in ordert to do that. I am using this blog to jot down my thoughts as I transform into a so called better me.

So what makes a better me? A list of things that societiy says will make you better or is it a list of things that i can do after im smaller? what ever the diffention is , I want the changes to happen now. I am impatient. I admit that. Maybe that should be on the top of my list. Patience. ok so I am getting somewhere.

So lets add that to the LIST

Today, it was a struggle to get liquids in because I am experiencing stomach cramping everytime I swallow and the liquid goes down. Im told that the tummy is swollen and it needs to heal some more. I havent had the buyers remorse yet. I am just very uncomfortable. I look forward to the mushie stage there are so many things you can eat at that stage. I am still bored and I am still looking for things to do in the house I dont think i can clean anymore lol. I cooked baked pork chops for the family tonight and i didnt even feel bad that I couldnt eat them so I am getting somewhere. I couldnt help myself I stpped on the scale and the it barley moved. I dont expect it to but i was just wishing. Like wouldnt it be cool if in the future you could get the sleeve and u dropped an immediate 50 pounds upon leaving the hospital. as of today i lost 10 pounds. blah

I hope i can practice patience i have 5 more days till my dr visit. hopefully mushies

until next time freinds

roro

XOXOXOX