Day 2

I woke up this morning and am much more positive and happier with the decision to have the surgery. My breaking point was last night; my husband was so angry with me and so hurt; i don't think i've ever seen him so hurt and concerned. He was giving me some tuff love and the words just broke my heart and crumbled me; he has never spoken to me this way; he didn't yell but i could see in his eyes, the helplessness and disappointment.

I woke up this morning and I've decided that I no longer have the choice to be overweight. I will not live a long healty life; its not fair to my children or to my husband; especially not me; i've let myself go way beyond all control. this is not who I am; I never was overweight growing up and I'll be damned if I'll turn 40 and still have to carry this weight.

I left messages this morning with the lap center so hopefully they will call me back tomorrow so that I may book my consultation.

I'm jumping in, all fours, no parachute and I'm not looking back. No more regrets. No more excuses.

01/2/07