Where I am

So I've had my band for six weeks now and I'm definately struggling. I go back and forth with feeling incredible and depressed. I'm down 30.5 pounds from my highest weight and thats great but I've only lost a pound in the last three weeks and it's frustrating. For the most part I follow my planned diet, I know "for the most part" doesn't sound very good but I am trying very hard. I'm sixteen so it's frustrating looking the way I do. I've ate very healthy and excersized my whole life, so my normal pediatrician was always shocked as to why I was so heavy, but hey we are who we are. I need my band tightened and my appointment to talk to the nurse-practitioner is this monday so I'm excited, yet very nervous for that. I need a friend to talk to about my struggles with weight and the surgery but nobody knows. I have only told my parents, brother, and grandpa. I don't want people to know because they are so judgemental. It's hard that no one knows about my surgery not only because I need a friend to talk to but also because I go to parties, sleepovers, and other normal fun teenage stuff that causes it to be hard. All my friends eat is mostly junk and sometimes it's hard to find things to eat. (I usually bring some protein shakes though) I want to tell some of my friends, I'm just not ready yet. I don't regret having surgery at all. I love my band and I'm proud of it, it's just hard as I'm sure all of you know, I'm excited for my new healthier life, but I'm also excited to get out of this little funk I've been having.