24 Hours

Well, what do you know, I am now a blogger. 24 hours from now I should have been banded and in recovery. My feelings at this time are all over the place. Anxious, brave, excited, scared. You name an emotion and I have felt it. If I'm not ashamed of using this tool, why are there so many people that are? I feel it is no different than any other tool, less bypass. I've been thru that surgery with my ex, a cousin, a sister, and a good friend, I only know 2 people that have been banded, 1 is an absolute star student, 1 who only lost 20 pounds she said as she had a hot dog in 1 hand and a slurpie in the other.

I'm pretty much on my own, I think I must like it that way. I think my fear is change, with change usually comes chaos, and Lord knows I have had enough of that. I have decided to do this after losing 65 pounds on my own and gaining it back over 2 years. That's what pisses me off the most. That I thought I had the battle won, when in fact it had just begun.