Gaining Back Weight

I was banded 5 years ago in Mexico. I came home with no support, doctor, or much of an idea of what I was in for. I lost 40 pounds (yes, that's it) and never reached my goal weight. I've had a few fills, although not recently. from a naturopath who used to be a chemo nurse who worked with ports. I was okay with my weight but I guess I gave up and found ways to eat "around" my band. Last year, I had problems with my thyroid, lost some weight, and then the issue resolved itself and I gained nearly 15 pounds. My clothes didn't fit, had to buy new. So now I'm only 25 pounds less than my start weight. I eat junk food, feel horrible about it. I've considered another fill but my band is so finicky! I have so much restriction throughout the night I can barely drink water. It is very tight in the morning and sometimes throughout the day. Then in the evening, it loosens up. It is the weirdest thing. I have had many episodes of being "stuck". It is horrible. Takes forever to get something up and out. Sucks when I'm teaching a classroom of third graders! I'm not too happy. Even considered having the lap band removed and just be put out of my misery. But I was miserable heavy as well.

Is there anyone out there who understands my story? Has any advice? I want to get back on track again. Just need some motivation or something.

Suzie