By javaquarius
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Ugh well I clearly fell off the wagon. I dissappeared from here, I stopped thinking, and I found out that chips and what not go down so easy. Why would I sabotage myself? I feel like I do this just in regualr life too, beyond this massive journey I was so gung ho about.
Mental changs is the hardest. I didn't get to 300lbs in college without trying! If I think about the grand scheme of things, at least since 2005 I've lost almost 100 pounds. That is of course a 6 year handicap including atkins, weight watchers, calorie counting, and now the band. What could be my possible problem with being so self hurting?
I'm hoping that something in my mind will change soon. While looking at photos from a recent performance last night, I was astounded by how much smaller I look. That was a little kick in the pants to say hey, get back on this, get back to that site, start walking or working out or something, just do it. Remember when you wated to run? Well start moving.
Attempts start today
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