May 24th, 2011

So I started eating mushies. and it kind of scares me. The full liquids were a bitch but I felt like I completely had control. the mushies feel dangerously close to real food. I am actually nervous about taking back some of the reins and being able to eat closer and closer to "normal"

I've been to a couple of parties and haven't eaten...just brought some iced tea with me--because they only had beer, soda and fully-caffeinated coffee. It was weird sitting there watching every one eat. But I dealt with it---it wasn't even as bad as I would imagine it would be. Even though I'm not filled yet..i feel like I can eat less. I dont get how that works...maybe it's the pouch...but I think my swelling is pretty much gone. Who knows. I swear the doctors don't even fully know how this works.

I've lost 15 lbs in 12 days---absolutely unheard of--and yet i feel greedy to go faster. Silly. This isn't a race, it's a new lifetime lifestyle. I'm just anxious to feel comfortable walking around without a coat.

It may seem I don't have much to lose but when you're 4'11.5 (don't forget that .5!) every pound shows up big time.

I'm feeling good....a little alone on the journey...but not completely. My mother in law had this done too and she's been calling me every day which is nice.