The waiting game

I'm finding it hard to have to wait around for the next part of my journey. I started in November 2010 and although it only been two months I feel like its taking a long time. I have such high times during the month, especially after visiting my doctors office, or setting up appointment. But then there is a lot of time to wait and think. What if my insurance won't cover it? What if I'm not strong enough to make the right eating choices? What if something happens during surgery? This operation could change my whole life. ( in fact I'm praying that it does)

I'm an optimist through and through but this is a huge decision that I'm not taking lightly. I've chosen to get the surgery, which has been one of the hardest decisions I've had to make. Now instead of waiting, I want actions! I have my seminar at the end of the month and then I have to meet with my doctor to fill out the referral. It doesn't seem that far away but its the waiting, and thinking that are getting to me. I know I can do it. I just want to be given the chance already.

I talk too much.

Adrienne