I gained some motivation today and went to the gym. My dr's suggest working out at least a half hour everyday, so I thought today would be a great time to start.

My husband is in the navy, so I decided to go to the base gym. Granted, being surrounded by all these sweaty guys with big muscles is definatly a perk, but its also a bit intimidating too. What must they think of me, this 264lb girl, drenched in sweat, but only walking 2.4 miles an hour? I started thinking about this, and realized after awhile I didnt care what they thought. :redface: Sure, I wasnt buff, and Im not fitting into a bikini anytime soon, but hey, at least Im here, Im on a treadmill (which is a real feat in itself!) and Im sweating my ass off while I walk my mile at what is considered "cardio pace" for my body. It was liberating.

So now Im at home, getting ready to jump in the shower. Ive realized that Im actually kinda hungry, and its only 11:45, and I just ate at 9:30. Do I eat? Or do I wait? Only time will tell. Im gonna go jump in the shower (washing away my hard earned sweat), drink some water, and see where that puts me.

I'll write more tonight, but I just felt sooo good about realizing that I didnt care what others thought because I was doing this for me that I had to share. :smile: