Thoughs on my mind

I have a few things I want to talk about today.

I have to admit, I felt really funny when I was in Costco buying protein shakes. Especially since I don't look like someone who uses them. I almost felt like a wanna be, and it made me feel a bit ashamed at myself for letting it get this far. Personally, I don't really care what people think as they look into my cart and only see boxes and boxes of protein shakes, it just made me sad that I didn't feel comfortable buying them. But I have my boxes upon boxes of shakes that should last me oohh I don't know...16 days (holy crap just did the math, and I don't have NEARLY enough...guess I am going back...In my fridge it looked like a lot! ).

Another thing I have had on my mind, is I am having trouble sleeping at night. I usually never have trouble sleeping! I am so full of excitement, wonder, worry, anticipation, scared, I just keep running through everything that needs to get done before my surgery. I want to have plenty of shakes, drinks, popsicles, Tylenol, stocked up because my Mom is taking care of me, and I don't want to have to explain to her 50 times what I want/need (she is a TERRIBLE listener...I wonder if that's where I get it from...). I need new, but nice, sweat pants/pajamas to wear around the house as to not hurt my incisions. I am seriously contemplating those sweat pants that look like jeans to wear to work the following week, I have always kind of made fun of them, but I am finally seeing the practicality in them....maybe I should look into it... Plus I need to figure out my daughter's school BBQ. They are having it the same day as my surgery, and I don't want her to be at the hospital all day, she's 5, and that's a long day, I want her to be at school, where she isn't worrying, and can have fun, but I also don't want her to be the only child at the school BBQ without a parent/grandparent. What a Dilemma, but that was FINALLY figured out last night! So there is one worry off my mind.

Now, for my biggest worry, that has been solved! My husband was scheduled for work training, before I got my date, and I didn't think about it when they called and aked me if that date was okay, I didn't even hesitate, I just screamed YES! Well, it was in the MIDDLE of his two weeks of training. My luck of course, but he waited until the last minute to buy plane tickets, because he was still debating on going, but if he skipped this, then he HAS to skip the next one, and I have my mom here, she has been at all my other surgeries, so I told him not to worry I would be fine. Well, since he waited so long to buy airfare, his company didn't want to pay for his tickets, and so he has been kicked out of the training, and I feel HORRIBLE for that, but at the same time, my selfish side (I am an only child, I have a very LARGE selfish side), was extremely ecstatic! I could tell he was kind of relieved as well. So yay, my daughter gets to take her Grandma to the school BBQ. All is well on the daughter front.

Last thought on my mind today, I am on my second day of fasting, and it hasn't been bad, I haven't been two hungry, but I severely cut my portions the week prior in anticipation of the dreaded day 2 / day 3 period, so I am thinking that that helped some, we will see tomorrow. But I have always had trouble with heavy breakfasts, they give me an awful stomach ache, and I mean AWFUL! Even eggs give me terrible stomach aches, usually I could only eat cereal, or something really light in the morning, toast and Peanut butter gives me stomach aches, it's just to heavy, well needless to say, these protein shakes are KILLER!!! So, we will see what happens, maybe my surgeon can give me some suggestions!

Well, until next time (probably tomorrow), Ciao Bella! :smile: