Im lost

Well it has been months since I have been on this site..and since then I have not lost any weight..I actually gained weight.. I feel like everything is hitting me at once.. my husband injured himself and tore his achilles tendon, so he had to have surgery and will be out of work at least 4 mths..the financial hardship of haven to provide for the family is not just stressful in itself but around the same time he got injured my mother got ill and was diagnosed with "PANCREATIC CANCER"... I have been so depressed that I have been trying to over eat but in return Im actually hurting myself..so I decided to go back to Dr Kim and take ALL the saline out of my band once again..and since then i have gained about 10 lbs.. I am now at 216 lbs..I dont know what to do.. i have been over eating and my sugar has been out of waCK.. i know that I am not taking good care of myself.. but I cant STOP.. Im soo depressed and stress about my mom.. I feel so alone..:rolleyes2: the doc said that its stage 2.. so hopefully surgery will be involved and maybe she can beat this..but the survival rate is maybe 5 yrs...what should I do? should I go back to Dr Kim and get a fill again? I just dont want to gain anymore weight however I dont want to hurt myself by over eating and I feel like right now..FOOD is my comfort..but I look at myslef in the mirror and I see a fat disgusting person that has lost control of herself.. Please..any advice will greatly be appreciated.. WHAT SHOULD I DO????