First Fill......still no restriction!!

I got my first fill a few days ago and still have no restriction. I know it takes time and could take many fills to find my "sweet spot" but the waiting and frustration are killing me. I am still positive, especially after seeing some pictures posted on this site but must admit I am nervous that I paid 16k and won't see my goal weight. I can handle a 18-24 month period to get me there (I think) but am wondering if my expectations are too high and that I will most likely lose only half of the weight I need to lose. It all depends on me, I know that. I have started boot camp 3 times a week and trying to get back into running 2-3 times a week to help get me on track but boy....the same old habits are creeping back. I do phenomenally well until I get home around 5pm and then I totally fall apart! How can I have my act together for 2/3 of the day and so severely blow it the last 3-4 hours. The damage I do is nothing short of embarrassing. Since I do all of the cooking and "kitchen" stuff, it is difficult to step away. I have even thought of duct taping my hands!!!! Desperate to make this work for me. If anyone else shares this dilemma and has some great ideas, I would love to hear them. I know all about finding something else to do, go for a walk, read a book etc. Reality is, I can't even get out of the kitchen (cleaning up after dinner, making lunches, etc.). How do I change my mindset????????? I am truly desperate.:bored: