addiction

What is addiction ?

for a long time i always thought an addiction was some kind of substance abuse such as smoking of any kind legal or not or drinking alcohol without having control of it . what i came to realise was shocking . this all happend during a conversation with my mom and i mentioned that i was glad i did not have an addictive personality or any type of addiction i dont smoke anything and when i drink i can just have one and walk away . then she said "well what do you think you had to have this surgery for ? " i was just blown away . OMG !! for real i had never seen my eating habits as an addiction not once not EVER !! until now . WOW .and that in it self is just UGLY . but as each day comes along threw out my journey i will be more conscious of my addiction and learn to control it . i had my band placed Nov. 10th and had my first adjustment on the 10th of Dec. and about 3 more sice then including one defill was not even able to have fluids just sucked 100%

my starting weight was 254 and im at 190 and still going i'm about 20lbs from my goal and 35 from there goal . i feel so great and love the ability to buy cloths that i like and being able to find them much more easily than before . but threw it all it has been hard to make those better food choices but everyday that comes along i begin to see that its not the food that i need to control it is me and my addiction food is just for nourishment and nothing more

Ya it's crazy! I keep telling myself old habits die hard...for me it's the chewing thing. I got banded on Dec 10th and still forget to chew 30 times. I guess 28 years of eating HELLA fast isn't going to just go away! lol But, I am working on it, it's not fun to get stuck on something soft like ceral or creamed spinich (girl now you know my bites are way to big and I am not chewing to get those stuck). LOL You are doing so good! Can't wait to get there! Take care and keep it up!

yeah! I guess i always judged people with drug addiction and thought to myself why cant they control themselves but I couldnt control my excessive eating. Now i understand that anything inexcess is an addiction and we must learn to be less judgmental. I had surgery on jan 14,2010 I am losing slow only 24lbs down but I am really excited and I cant wait to go clothes shopping. Keep up the good work you look great. bye!Chachis