Just had maitance appointment - almost cancelled

Ok so this is what is up now On easter sunday i hit my 80 lbs mark - wow pants seem to be growing while i am wearing them - even my skinny pants are now too big i now prefer wearing tighter fitting clothing as i feel i look better i started running - ha did youjust read that I STARTED RUNNING i am a fat girl i look in the mirror and I dont even know who i am - I actually enjoy running now keep in mind i walk most of the route but the down hills and when ia m bored i actually like the running - is nuts this august will be my 2 year bandiversary - seems crazy that it was that long ago - my weight loss journey has been slow but steady - i may have said this once or twice before but i feel like i am breaking up with my best boyfriend ever- food - For me I have a real challenge feeling let down. Even though i am a dependable person and a go to girl ALOT of people in my life have left me well less than satisfied. My family - MY mom - My education - My career - boyfriends but food never let me down chocolate cake has never dissapointed me ( or i probably wuld not have made it up to 273 lbs ) people see me out in town i am a hairstylist so they know who i am and they cant believe it's me - I have even had people who have know me a long time not recognize me and i hardly recognize myself. And now with my food fetish breakup i realize how important food was to me in my life - both my mom and gram have recently passed away that is hard for me as they were the only other women in my family and my daughters they are having a tough time with the deaths especially the younger one. At night she was whimpering when i asked her what was wrong she asked me if i was going to die cause all they women in our family have been dying - scary when i 4 year old comprehends this - so now my journey to become healthy is even more intense. I almost cancelled my maitanance appointment for monday cause i know i am losing weight and not hungry - can get sick if i eat too much so i feel at a good point. But I went was glad to see i have lost 18 lbs in the last 2 months - right on target with where the dr wants me to be. Learning things about my diet everyday - for instance - took my kids to mc donalds - i wte a cheeseburger no bread ate slow chewed well - man that burger sat in my stomach and hurt me for hours - was like my body saying no not todaymy friend. I feel better when i am eating veggies fruits not processed foods - i am partial to peanut butter - wish my local market sold cashew butter i think i like that too - hm m mm mm well is great to have a ittle ice cream and not eat the entire carton - learning a little more each day - so isnt that what life is all about '?

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Losing in Braintree

good for you, im also a hairsylist. how much have you lost? im been banded for 8 months and down 45, but for the last 2 months its stayed the same. I'v been thinking about running too