Lapband blues...

so on april 13th 2010 will my a year since I've been banded. Today I went for my annual esophagram... the band is nicely in place, however my esophagus is irritated with ulcers due to my habit of regurgitation.. :-( my surgeon prescribed me meds and she said it will clear up if Im consistent with the meds for one month. Plus I gained 1 pound since last visit a month ago. This was not a good appointment, I happy for the meds because I feel pain in my throat. and she said that I will def feel better. I feel like Im letting myself down on this journey...I wanna take control again. I feel part of my problems are b/c I feel I can eat like a normal person again (which I never ate normal, I always OVER ATE) I feel that I can binge eat on the things I love, knowing very well they aren't going to stay down! this is so upsetting. Today, Im starting a new path to getting back on track the only reason I only gained 1 pound is because I workout like a maniac! I got back in one month, I wanna show her that I can control myself. She wouldn't tighten the band today either, which made me annoyed.... I needed her to so that I could lose more weight, but since I had this problem she wouldn't, which is completely understandable. oh well...Im gonna write back in one month...

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