1/22 - Move scale needle, move, damn thee!

Still trying to reach the 20.

But something else has come up. Temptation. Craving. Crumbling resolve.

So I've discovered (has this happened to you?) that now that I am feeling better, I am also a great deal more hungry and interested in old vices. Strangely enough, strongest of all is the urge to smoke. I started taking Chantix well before surgery and have been just fine. But with wellness creeping up it seems my brain and body are at war.

Also...In-N-Out. Panda Express. Chocolate.

Chocolate. Chocolate. Chocolate. Choc...

Must...get mind off them...

I haven't given in, Dear Reader, and I'm thankful for it. Although our plumber was outside smoking a cigarette and it was all I could do not to tackle him. It was awfully stinky, though. Deep breathing helps. It was a bit shocking because it's been so long since I've felt this way.

This liquid diet is the pits. I crave texture, crunch, but I have another 7 days on full liquids. Sigh. I am most looking forward to scrambled eggs, which I think I can have at the semi-solids/pureed stage. Mmmm. Eggs.

All that said, I feel wonderful. Clothes that were tight now fit perfectly, sometimes even a little loosely. How cool is that?

Good for you...you are doing great! Just FYI...I LOVE Panda but these days I can eat about a half a cup of whatever from there and then I am full and in a little band pain...which is good!Its a great feeling to be where I really cant overeat and just need my willpower to stay away from the slider foods like ice cream which I guess I could eat all day!Keep on!!!

Thank you so much for the encouragement. I'm looking forward to the fill and having just half a cup.