I've been thinking...

Are you sitting comfortably? Then I'll begin :biggrin1:

I have been thinking about lots of different things these last few days. My moods have been up and down and kind of non existant which makes for many different thoughts.

I was let down by a friend yesterday. In the whole scheme of life it was no big deal but I was disappointed and a little upset ('cos she didnt even call to say I couldn't visit after all) and suddenly the old demons took this as an opportunity to pay an unexpected visit. How can moods and often consequently eating change so damned suddenly? One minute I'm happy with my piece of chicken and my veg and am contemplating and afternoon at my friends. The next I'm thinking of nibbling anything and everything in the house and going out to find somethings that I don't have in the cupboards...a nice big ice-cream being top of the list. It's ridiculous to change so quickly. I guess it ultimately shows that maybe the demons will never go away and they live behind a very thin veil in our heads and are willing and happy to visit any chance we give them .

What did I do? Aaah well, you'll be dead proud of me :clap2: I sat for over an hour thinking about food and about why I was thinking about food! I hadn't planned to do any exercise that afternoon because I was going out. So, I pulled on my trainers but couldn't for the life of me muster anything like enthusiasm for walking, aerobics ..nutting! I called another friend and while we were talking it got into my head to walk down to hubby's pharmacy. So I did! :clap2: :clap2: :clap2: :clap2: :clap2: :clap2: :clap2: :clap2: :clap2: (thought I deserved them). Now you have to understand that the pharmacy is no easy task...it's not too far and it's all flat or downhill...ahh but it is in Athens! The pavements are narrow and often have cars squished onto them...they are uneven and have these silly trees planted in the middle so I have to duck every ten seconds or walk in the road(I'm way too tall to live here)...which makes my knees hurt 'cos the curb sides are so high to step back onto...Anyway I did it. Used to take me 40mins the last couple of times I tried it. This time it took me 25 which wasn't bad (but maybe am still not as fit as I think I am now). And that was that. Didn't touch a single thing I shouldn't have and had a good walk instead.

I have been thinking about some other things too but I know there's only so much you can take in one sitting so I wont bore you silly (and I'll have none of those.."too late"comments thank you very much!):Dancing_biggrin:

I applaud you for taking that time to evaulate things and then taking a walk instead of turning to food. THAT WAS AWESOME:clap2: :clap2: :clap2: :clap2:

I agree with Teresita.... and congrats on the speed of only 25 min....WOOT WOOT!!!!!

Hey girl - yep unfortunately those 'demons' that LIE to us do lie just below the surface - I know what you mean - had one of those exact kind of days yesterday with someone online....it is so frustrating to base OUR own existence on that of other people and their fickle ways.....it was a 'learning' day for both of us I think -- hang in there - know you are loved - and good job on NOT eating but exercising instead - bet you made it there in 25 min cause you were steaming mad! lol