round two

so today was my appt with my physician and I'm at the 20lbs mark soo we will be staring to send in an appeal if it don't go threw i don't know what else i can do i have done all they ask . at this point I'm frustrated and determined to beat this best that has taken control of my life . although i love me and all that i am . i don't like being unhealthy / although i don't have any high blood pressure or diabetes . but thats where I'm headed if i don't WIN ! so weather i get the chance to get the surgery which would rock . i will be a LOSER =)

enough is enough . and i love life and my family way to much . and i can not give up on them . much less myself