The wait is killing me...

As I look at the website and see all the before and after pictures I sit here thinking...will that ever be me? Will I ever be able to have the 2nd chance at life that Im searching for?? Will I ever be of NORMAL size? Will I ever be able to shop at the stores where all my peers shop? Instead of the Catherines, Lane Bryant, and Avenues???

I am just waiting at this point, waiting for my psych eval, letters of medical necessities and lab work to be sent to my surgeon so that they can send them to the insurance company. :phanvan

Im debating on sending them pictures of me. Surely they will see how large I am, and they would approve me. There is no way I could ever even imagine coming up with the 15k they want for the surgery. My goodness. That is a lot of money. Plus, I would feel quite selfish even thinking about spending 15k on me....

Uggh, im getting a headache thinking about all of this...I think Im going to just read a few posts...and stop focusing on all this...its just going to stress me out...and get me depressed, will I ever get out of this world of "FAT"?

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I'm so sorry you are feeling what "I" have felt for a long time -- I shop with my 25 yo daughter a lot - and she is a little overweight but still wears a size 12 (she's short though) -- and I have to watch - because I can only go to fat girl stores too....hugs to you - hang in there - the band will be approved soon and you will lose fast then -- I can see it already!!! and then you can shop with your friends at those skinny girl stores --- promise! You'll be there before you know it