it'a so close

Today was my best day since I started my protein shakes,this is day 5. It may because I was not in the house I hung out with my sister.We spent a lot of time in the stores so that kept my mind pretty occupied.

I did so good while we were out. I did not feel tempted to eat anything I made sure I had my protein shake before I left the house. I doubled up knowing that I was going to be out for most of the day and I had my Crystal Light with me.

I can not believe that my date is so close in 24 hours I will at Providence Hospital having my Lap-band!! It has taken me almost 8 years to finally mentally take a look at myself and say it is time. I have been to so many seminars I read so many stories on here that there is really not much that I don't know about having band other than actually having it.

I do sometimes wish that I would have it done right after my son was born almost 8 years ago,but I hesitated because I wanted to have another child even though they say you can still have a baby with the band at that time I just wasn't sure.Then there was last year when I thought I was ready I wasn't. So here I am ready, so ready to start a new chapter in my life.

when I really think about what has taken me so long other than the mental part it was people who have been in my life telling me I look like I lost weight when I knew I had gained and then it was those telling me you are so tall were is all that weight.Well I know were it is hiding underneath my clothes LOL.

I can't believe I am blogging I have never done this before and I am sure some you are saying yea we can tell because you are all over the place LOL. I like it it's better than writing in a journal for me until Tom.

Peace and blessings